“I don’t like kids. Youknowthat. I don’t want to watch my child be targeted because of who I am. I don’t want to put the loss of a child on you because one of my enemies uses it as a way to get to me. It’s fucking bad enough that you are used against me and you will continue to be without a doubt.
“I hate the fact that the idea hurts you, but I can’t let a child be born into our way of life. I refuse to let it happen. That’s why I have the rule of you staying on some sort of birth control.
“Please, Avidya. Please understand that.”
I begged. I fucking begged my wife, my submissive, to understand me.
“I understand,” she muttered out, her voice thick with tears. “Doesn’t change the fact that you’d kill a baby.”
“Are you pregnant? Is that why Kenna brought it up?” I asked as the thought popped into my head. Would I reconsider my options if she was?
“No,” she sniffed out.
“Good,” I sighed out. I’d have given it a chance if it got my wife to fucking not cry and hate me. Because I knew she would hate me, and I couldn’t stand that. “Is that why you calledred? Because I’d force a baby that had no say to die?”
“You can’t kill everyone you don’t like,” she said, her chin quivering. “But to make you happy, if I did happen to have akid, I’d give it up if it got to keep on living.”
I know she would. That was why with this girl right here, why I wouldn’t force her to have an abortion, despite my words.
“You’d tell me if you, were, right?” I asked, looking deeply at her.
“Yes,” she answered without a thought on the subject.
“Alright,” I sighed out. “Are you okay now?”
“Yeah,” she sniffed through a yawn. “Tired.”
“Take a nap,” I said gently.
Had I been taking too much from her to make her so tired lately? Was she still trying to figure how to live with me, and that alone was causing too much stress?
“Will you stay?” she asked, her watery eyes meeting mine.
“Always,” I smiled before pressing a kiss to the top of her head.
