There’s no change except something deep within us. I don’t feel anything differently. I don’t feel any of them inside me like it’s said canidae bonds can be felt within their packs. As we’ve been explaining to Rainer, it’s not that kind of bond.
It just is. Our monsters are connected again, just as they’d been in a previous life. Wholeness. The feeling of completion.Everything inside of me is at peace. The stress and longing and frustration that I could feel in my soul is simplygone.
With a sigh, I lean my head against Rainer’s and close my eyes.
“So… I don’t feel anything,” Rainer says.
I grin but don’t open my eyes. Notto chuckles.
“You won’t,” Keary says. “Remember it’s not that kind of bond. Even if you can’t feel the difference, we can.”
“What’s it feel like?” Rainer asks.
“Finally,” Notto says.
“Home,” I say.
“It’s… family,” Keary adds.
“Huh,” Rainer says. “Okay. So… what now?”
“Can we fuck now?” I ask, opening my eyes. Ohh, look at the pretty pink on Rainer’s cheeks! So adorable.
Keary grins. “I’m down for that.”
“You’re always down for an orgasm,” Notto says, rolling his eyes.
Our focus turns to Rainer, putting him on the spot. Poor, sweet, adorable human. I forgot sexy. He’s totally sexy. I very clearly remember getting undressed with him in the fae woods at the foot of the crystal pond.
I’m excited to suck his dick.
“It’s weird when it’s asked like that,” Rainer mutters.
“How would you prefer to be asked?” Notto asks, stepping closer to him.
Because I’m still holding his hand and leaning close, I can feel the way his breathing changes. Notto has been a little distant with him, much more than Keary and I have. It doesn’t mean he feels anythinglessthan we do. It means he was focusing his energy on the bigger task: Keary.
Notto’s fingers touch Rainer’s stomach through his shirt and slowly make their way up his chest until he can stroke Rainer’s neck. Rainer shivers.
“Have you ever fucked three monsters?” Notto asks.
Rainer shakes his head. “No offense, but monsters are violent assholes.”
We laugh. He’s not wrong.
“True,” Notto says. “But nobody can fuck you like a monster can.”
“You can say no,” Keary says, and I nod emphatically in agreement. “You can say no to all at once or no entirely. Don’t feel obligated, precious. You’re in complete control right now.”
Rainer closes his eyes and takes a breath. I don’t think he wants to say no. He’s just too nervous to say yes. I release his hand and move behind him, retaking his hand with my opposite as I press a kiss to the side of his neck.
“We won’t be upset if you don’t want to,” I assure him.
“I want to,” he says, his voice barely above a whisper. “I’m just…”
Nervous. He’s nervous.
“Do you want to call the shots, or do you want to let us please you?” Notto asks.
