He shivers. “Yeah, okay. Definitely, we’re doing that.”
Chapter Twenty-Five
HUGO
Torin hasa nice view from his apartment. If you look to the left, you can see the city of Los Angeles spread out in the distance, but to the right are green hills. It looks peaceful next to the city. It’s not completely natural, but it’s definitely greener and more beautiful than the city is.
The city is beautiful too. It’s just a different kind of beauty.
I love the big windows he has overlooking this part of California. It’s just stunning, and a very different perspective from what I see out my windows with the juxtaposition of concrete and nature.
Raising my hands over my head, I stretch my spine as I take in the view. There’s always something new to see. A little park. A big tree that’s taller than the rest, waving above the canopy. I think there’s a nest in the tree just in front of the apartment building. At least, that’s what it looks like.
Hands press to my lower back and I look over my shoulder. I didn’t hear Torin come out of the bathroom. His hands smooth over my sides and around to my stomach, splaying widely across my abs.
“Why are you still naked?” he asks, pressing his lips to the back of my shoulder.
“I would live naked if I could,” I tell him. He presses his body to mine. Damn man is still wrapped in a towel. I need to convince him of the beauty of nudity.
Reaching behind me, I tug at it gently. He puts a few inches between our midsections so I can pull it off him. As I drop it to the ground, his damp flesh presses to mine. I can feel his hard cock against my ass cheek.
Despite the fact I always had a different girl at home every night, I don’t really consider myself as obsessed with sex as it might seem. At least half of those times, I never even took my clothes off, or let them touch me. I focused on their pleasure and then getting them out of my house.
I think the idea of sex is sometimes more appealing than getting into the acts of sex.
It’s different with Torin. I won’t go so far as to suggest he fixed me because I’m not broken because I feel differently about sex. It’s just that… the appeal of sex matches what I physically feel when I’m with him. I’ve never experienced that before.
Part of me wonders if it’s that I’m more sexually into men than I am women, which is kind of wild to me since I’ve literally never considered even checking out a man before. I’m still not sure I’ve checked out any men. Besides Torin, of course. It’s not that I’ve had to convince myself not to look. It just… never occurred to me to be curious.
Maybe it all adds together. I wasn’t ever interested in someone beyond a mediocre hook up—physically or emotionally. But it’s all different with Torin. Iaminterested in him—as a person, as a partner, as a lover, as a future.
“You have such a perfect ass,” Torin murmurs, still pressing kisses to the back of my shoulder.
I grin. Here I am thinking some deep thoughts and he’s thinking about my ass.
“Can I ask you a question?”
“Mmm,” he agrees.
“Do you think that—No, let me try it a different way. Do you believe that there is one person for everyone?”
“You mean monogamy?”
“Oh. No, I don’t mean that. Uh… like… soulmates? Like two or three or whatever people are just meant for another person or people? It gets complicated when I say it inclusively, so just know I’m not narrowing my intention behind the question, but I’m going backto asking for two people because it doesn’t sound confusing that way.”
Torin chuckles. “I don’t know. Why?”
“I was just musing that I don’t remember a time when something has ever felt so good with another person.”
“You liked masturbating more than hooking up?”
I snort. “No, that’s not…” I pause. “Yeah, actually sometimes I did. Maybe most of the time I did. But I’m not sure if it was because I was too afraid of getting someone pregnant, or if it was… me. Does that make sense?”
“Mm-hmm. It’s perfectly normal not to be into sex.”
“But it’s not just sex—though we’ll come back to that—I mean it’s all kind of combined for me. Like… sex, yes. But… emotional attachment? Is that what I mean?”
“Romantic interest?”
