Me
No way. That’s awesome.
7493
Want to see?
Me
Yes!
She sends me several pictures and I’m fascinated. Who knew fish could be so cool? And so damn big! They’re huge!
Me
Wow!! They’re incredible!
7493
Thanks. They can be a lot of work because it’s a huge tank but they’re good, low maintenance company. They don’t shed or bark either. And they don’t scratch my furniture or make a mess on my floors.
Me
Haha. I always wanted a pet, but I travel a lot. There are months that I’m not home for almost twenty days because I have a string of away games.
7493
Do you live alone?
Me
Yes. I have company a lot but there are times like today when all my friends are busy. So I’m just sprawled across my couch watching tv, which is boring.
7493
Maybe you need more friends.
Me
I have a lot of friends, I think. The thing is, I put my foot in my mouth a lot and that’s off putting to a lot of people. They tend to think I’m insulting them or judging them or something. Really, I just have a lot of questions.
I’m still amazed that I somehow made it so long without getting punched. The looks Noah used to give me really emphasized that I needed to work on how I ask questions. I’ve spent a lot of time paying attention to how people ask questions over the past year, and I’ve come to the conclusion that either most people just aren’t as curious as I am or that the questions I have are inappropriate to ask.
Honestly, given how people tend to respond to me? It’s probably the latter. I’ve stopped asking so many questions, but sometimes, it feels like the need to ask burns inside me.
I’m now working on everything else I say because it seems that even those thoughts that I do put into the world can be just as offensive as my questions.
Seriously, how did I live before my friends started protecting me from myself? Was I less inquisitive before I met them? Is it their presence that allows me enough comfort to ask questions and say what I’m thinking?
Some days I feel really stupid. My one talent, the skill I worked hardest on, is hockey. I’ve heard the moniker ‘dumb jock’ my entire life, and I can’t help but feel as though I embody it at this point.
7493
People are oversensitive these days. If you look at them, they can be offended. If you don’t look at them, they’ll be offended. It’s probably nothing you do.
I appreciate she thinks this of me. It’s not true, but it’s still nice to imagine she thinks well of me. For now.
Me
