“I said I didn’t knowhow, not that I didn’t want to.” His eyes are pleading. “Please be patient with me. I want to try this Olly, I really do. But what if I can’t give you what you deserve?”
“You’re not the only one who doesn’t know what they’re doing. I’ve never really been good at this either. What if I focus on givingmyselfwhat I deserve? And you, I think…” I lean forward, kissing his forehead. “It’s time to let yourself have somethingyoudeserve.”
I lean down, softly brushing my lips over his until he opens.
I know I need to take my own advice and let myself believe I can have him. However foolish it may be.
My hand cups his jaw, deepening the kiss, savoring every inch of his delectable mouth.
“I want you,” he murmurs against my lips.
“You already have me.”
I squeeze his waist before sliding my hand up his body, taking the fabric with me. Jasper raises his arms above his head, and we separate long enough for his shirt to hit the floor.
Jasper’s hands become frantic as he pulls and tugs at my shirt before getting it over my head in haste. His breath quickens when I suck and kiss my way down his neck, my fingers working the buttons of his pants until they shimmy to the floor. My own soon to follow.
We move under the spray of the hot shower, all lips, tongues, and grabby hands.
“You are so sexy. I have been dreaming about you for weeks,” I confess in between kisses.
“I have been borderline obsessed with you for months.”
“Borderline?” I joke. “You broke into my house and went through my family photo album.”
Needing skin, my hands paw at every inch of him.
Jasper’s fingers tangle in my hair, and his body trembles when my thumb brushes over his pierced nipple, making my cock try to rally.
“You’re a hard one to crack, Olly,” he says breathlessly. “But I’m figuring you out.”
“Oh really,” I say, giving his ass a squeeze and dragging my finger along the crease, finding his puckered hole. His breath hitches. “And what have you figured out?”
Jasper’s mouth ghosts along my jawline. “Underneath all that flannel and Gilmore Girl vibes is someone who would take in Baby Spy and give her love and a chance at a good life, even if it was only for the weekend. I understand the magnitude of what you did.”
I pull back, looking at him. “Every child deserves a loving and supportive home environment, no matter what form it takes… and so did you, Jasper.”
“I know, and I eventually got there. There were just a few bumps along the road. But I got there.”
I kiss him softly, gently. There’s no urgency behind it like there was a few moments ago. But my pulse is racing, nonetheless. The air around us shifts into something deeper, something more.
Water cascades all around us, our lips red and kiss-swollen. I reach for the body wash, knowing we’re running out of time.Next on the upgrade list:water heater.
We wash each other, our hands sliding all over, but never pushing for anything more before the water finally runs cold.
We’re both quiet as we step out from under the now-frigid spray. The air crackles with unspoken feelings as we dry and our gazes lock, a spark running between us as our fingers brush. Mine seem to have a mind of their own. Any chance they get, they itch to slide across Jasper’s silky, smooth skin.
With towels wrapped around our waists, I take his hand and lead him down the hall and into the bedroom.
Jasper’s hand clenches tightly in mine, telling me he’s nervous.Am I pushing too far again?
Holding my breath, I lie down on the bed with the blanket open; the silence magnifying his next move.
Jasper cocks his head, eyes darting around, taking in the scene before surprising me and sliding under the covers.
I pull his body to mine, cradling him with his back to my chest. At first, he tenses up like a startled animal, but then he relaxes into my embrace.
“I don’t think I’ve ever done this before. This, umm.” He clears his throat. “This cuddling thing.”
