"You good?" Gavin whispers.
"Yeah," I say, surprising myself by meaning it. "I'm good."
Chapter 16
A Baby Gay Never Tells
Sebastian
The letter sits on my desk like a fucking bomb.
Dear Mr. Moretti,
‘We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted for consideration for entrance-level studies in the CardioVascular Research Program at the University of Zurich…’
Switzerland. Fucking Switzerland.
I read it three more times because apparently I'm a masochist. They want to schedule a Zoom interview. They think I'm "an exceptional candidate." If I’m accepted it comes with a full scholarship plus stipend.
This is everything I've worked for. Everything I've killed myself studying for. The exact program that could set me up for the cardiac surgery specialization I've dreamed about since freshman year.
And all I can think about is my stupid smile when he asked me to be his Valentine's date.
"Fuck." I flop back on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I need Gavin's tutoring more than ever if I'm going to make it through an interview without having a panic attack.
But if I get in...
My phone buzzes.
Gavin
so valentine's day is saturday
and i was thinking
would you be my date?
like officially?
I stare at the texts. My thumbs hover over the keyboard. Should I even be dating when everything might explode in a few months? When I might be moving to fucking Europe?
Gavin
unless you don't want to
shit did i read this wrong?
doc?
Me
No! You didn't read it wrong
Gavin
oh thank god
thought i was gonna have to throw myself into the campus pond
