“Why not?” I ask.
She holds my gaze for a moment, then turns back to do the dishes. Tommy gives me a look that saysare you an idiot?I shrug, not knowing what I did wrong.
“I’d like to get a cell phone,” she says suddenly, turning off the faucet and drying her hands.
“Yeah? I think that’s a great idea,” I say. “I can add you to my plan, if you want.”
Her eyes narrow.
“If you want,” I say again. This time more slowly. “You don’t have to.”
“I’ll give you the money for it.”
“Of course you will.”
She’s quiet for a moment, then says, “Should I start packing?”
“Absolutely.” I grin as she walks by, reaching for her arm to pull her to me. She giggles as I tug her down to kiss me. Then she leaves the kitchen.
“Way to go, Captain Obvious,” Tommy says quietly.
“What?”
He shakes his head and leans back in his chair.
“Someone will be by tonight or tomorrow to install a security system.”
“Shit,” he mutters, pulling out his phone. “Guess I should cancel the one I ordered.”
I laugh, looking down at Dorothea who looks like she’s about to fall asleep.
“Two won’t hurt. You know? As like a back up or something. In case one fails.”
Tommy stares at me, then puts his phone on the table.
“We’ll see how good the one you get is first.”
“Good idea,” I say, as I grab Dorothea’s little feet and clap them together, then kiss each one again. “The safer, the better.”
Chapter Thirty-Two
Anastacia
The cabin we’re staying in is beautiful. I’ve never seen anything like it before—not in person. Grizz is spoiling me.
“Is this actually made of logs?” I ask, running my hand over the smooth wood.
“Sure is,” Grizz says, putting down Dorothea’s carrier. She slept the whole way here, and she’s still sleeping now. Hopefully we can get everything inside and put away before she wakes up.
“It’s beautiful.”
“Not as beautiful as you, Angel.” Grizz kisses my head, and I swear each time he does it, I fall for him a little more.
The cold air swoops in when he opens the door to get more things from the car. I’d offer to help, but I already know the answer will be no. So I pop my head into each of the bedrooms before carrying our suitcases into the one with the bigger bed.There isn’t much space around it, so we may have to keep Dorothea’s travel crib closer to the door. Or maybe… I sigh, staring at the wall that’s shared with the other bedroom. Maybe she could sleep in the other room for the first time? It’s not too far. Closer than her room at home is.
My appointment is in just a couple of hours. I feel fine, and I’m sure she’s going to tell me I’m good to have sex. Which means we will. Because I really want to. I think about it all the time, and the only thing stopping me is him. He’s been adamant about waiting for the doctor’s clearance. What we’ve been doing is great and feels amazing, but I want so much more with him and our relationship. I’m ready for this. I was never sure that I would be, after everything that happened, but Grizz makes me feel safe. And that, I think, is what’s important. If he were someone else, someone who didn’t make me feel like that, I think it would trigger a panic attack. I think I wouldn’t want to do it at all. But with him… I know he will keep me safe, not hurt me, and make it good. He’ll be careful and show me what it’s really supposed to be like.
My eyes stayed glued to the bedroom wall. She’d be just on the other side. Not far at all. I may not sleep, but we have to start this at some point, right? She needs to be in her own room eventually. She has a gorgeous crib at home that is just sitting there. The bassinet will only hold her for a little longer. Soon it won’t be safe.
