He's across the room in what feels like a single heartbeat, moving with a speed that seems impossible for someone in such heavy gear. The floor shakes beneath his boots, or maybe that's just my own trembling. He drops to one knee beside me, his face half-hidden behind his mask, but his eyes wide and frantic.
His hands are everywhere at once checking for injuries with trembling urgency. Even through his thick gloves, I feel the gentleness in his touch, the desperate care. He runs his hands down my sides, across my back, not lingering but thorough, professional yet somehow deeply personal.
He pulls me up against his chest, solid and immovable in his bunker gear. I've always thought of myself as substantial, but in this moment, wrapped in Austin's arms, I feel almost fragile. Protected.
The hard planes of his body against mine create a strange contradiction: I am both acutely aware of my own softness, my curves pressing against his firmness, and yet I've never felt stronger, more secure. His breath is ragged against my hair, and I realize with dizzying clarity that he's afraid. Not for himself, but for me.
Above us, a terrible cracking sound splinters through the roar of flames. Austin looks up just as it gives way, a flaming timber crashing down exactly where we were standing seconds before. Sparks explode outward like a firework, bright and deadly.
He throws his body over mine, shielding me completely, pressing my face into his chest as heat washes over us both. I feel him flinch, feel the shudder that runs through him as embers rain down on his back, but he doesn't make a sound. His body covers mine entirely, a human shield.
"I've got you," he murmurs against my hair, the words a desperate promise, almost a prayer. "Stay with me, Michelle. Please. Stay with me."
The raw plea in his voice reaches something deep inside me, something that responds with a surge of will I didn't know I still possessed.
He moves with single-minded purpose, charging through the smoke toward that faint rectangle of light. The floor shakes beneath his boots, timbers groaning. The air itself seems to be burning now, each breath searing my lungs.
Something else collapses behind us with a thunderous crash, sending a shock wave I can feel through Austin's body. Heat flares, bright and terrible, and Austin tightens his grip on me, his arms bands of iron around my body.
His muscles strain against me as he pushes forward through what feels like solid heat, each step deliberate and determined.
And then, suddenly, miraculously, we're through.
Cold night air hits me hard, shocking after the inferno. I gasp, the stark contrast sending me into a fit of coughing that wracksmy entire body. Every cell seems to convulse, desperate to expel the smoke and draw in the clean, frigid winter air.
Austin drops to his knees in the snow-dusted grass, still holding me tightly against him. He's shaking, I realize, fine tremors running through his powerful frame as he presses his face into my hair.
His hand cups the back of my head, gentle despite the trembling in his fingers. Ash and embers drift around us like perverse snow, glowing briefly before fading into the darkness.
The night air is chaos—voices shouting, radios crackling, the continued roar of the fire behind us. Somewhere, a siren wails.
But all I can focus on is Austin, his ragged breathing, the way he's holding me like he's afraid I might disappear if he loosens his grip even slightly. His face is inches from mine, his eyes reflecting the orange glow of the fire, searching mine with an intensity that makes my breath catch.
"Michelle!" Paul's voice breaks through the chaos, sharp with fear. My brother appears at the edge of my vision, his face ashen beneath smudges of soot. "Oh God, Michelle."
Austin's arms loosen, just barely, as Paul drops to his knees beside us. But I find myself clinging tighter, my fists gripping Austin's bunker jacket like it's a lifeline. My body remembers the feeling of being safe in his arms, and it doesn't want to surrender that safety, not yet. I don't want to let go. I can't.
Paul pulls me into a frantic hug, his hands running over my arms, my face, checking for injuries. I can smell the smoke on him too, see the terror in his eyes. "Are you hurt? Can you breathe? Talk to me, Mich."
"I'm okay," I manage, the words scraped raw from my throat. Each one feels like swallowing broken glass. "I'm okay."
But my eyes keep finding Austin. He's still kneeling in the snow, looking dazed and wrecked. Soot streaks his face, and his breath comes in visible puffs in the cold night air. There's a burn on his neck, angry and red, that I hadn't noticed before.
He tries to look away when our eyes meet, tries to compose his features into something professional, distant. But he can't seem to maintain it. His gaze keeps returning to me, full of a nakedness that makes something in my chest crack open.
Paramedics swarm around us, voices efficient and calm. They move with practiced urgency, a choreography of care. Someone drapes a blanket over my shoulders, the rough material scratchy against my neck. Someone else presses an oxygen mask to my face, the cool flow a blessing to my ravaged lungs. They ask me questions I can barely process—my name, the date, if I know where I am. Their voices seem to come from very far away.
All I can focus on is Austin, who has finally risen to his feet but stands just a few paces away, watching me with an intensity that should frighten me but doesn’t. His hands hang at his sides, curling and uncurling as if he doesn't know what to do with them now that they're not holding me. There's a tension in his body, a readiness, like he's prepared to leap forward at the slightest sign that I need him.
"Ma'am, we need to check your oxygen levels," a paramedic says, gently turning my face toward her. Her gloved fingers are cool against my heated skin. "Can you take a deep breath for me?"
I try, but it sends me into another coughing fit, my body convulsing with the effort. Through watering eyes, I see Austin take an involuntary step forward, his hand half-raised as if toreach for me, before he forces himself to stop. His jaw clenches. His chest rises and falls in uneven pulls. He looks like he hasn't taken a real breath since the moment he let me go.
"You need to get checked out too," Paul tells him, one hand still on my shoulder. There's something in my brother's voice—a new note, a recognition. "You were in there without a mask."
Austin nods, but doesn't move. His eyes are fixed on mine.
Behind him, my studio, my life's work, burns against the darkening sky. Everything I've built, everything I've created, consumed in flames. The orange glow illuminates half his face, casting the other half in shadow, and in that contrast I see the man who just walked through fire for me.
