“I know you hate being in this bed, and I’m sorry you can’t get up anymore without help, but we knew this was coming, love,” she said after a moment.
“I know, babe I’m sorry I took my frustration out on you. That wasn’t fair to you.”
“It’s okay, I know you didn’t mean anything by it.”
“I’m scared,” Rafe admitted. “I’m scared of dying. I’m scared of the pain, of the weakness. I’m scared of leaving you. I’m scared that everything we believe is false, that there is no afterlife, that there’s just an empty void and I’ll wander lost and alone forever,” he said suddenly.
“Oh, love. I think we all have that fear at some point. You just have to have faith that the afterlife is there and that Shenbus will be waiting for you to ferry your soul into it.” She tightened her arms around him.
“I’m scared, too. I’m scared of watching you fade away. I’m scared of holding your hand as life leaves your eyes, and the breath leaves your body. I’m scared of facing a future without you in it. I’m scared of a life without you here at my side. But I know I have no choice but to face it, because this is our reality.” She didn’t bother to wipe away the tears that streamed down her cheeks. She let them fall. “I love you so much, Rafe. You’ve been a part of me for half my life. We’ve been together for twenty five years. That’s a lot of laughter, a lot of tears, a lot of love, and the memories are going to have to get me through the next twenty five years without you.”
“I know, babe, and I wish with all I am that I could change things. You deserve more time,wedeserve more time. It’s unfair.” He caressed her cheek and wiped tears away. “I love you, babe, more than words can ever impart.”
“I love you too, Rafe. Rest now. You look exhausted.”
He sighed. “I am. I get so worn out, so quickly,” he confessed and let his eyes close.
“I’ll be right here when you wake up,” Kaia promised and kissed him gently. She laid there beside him and watched him sleep. A feeling of dread settled over her. She knew, deep in her bones, that within the next few days she would be saying her final goodbye to one of the loves of her life.
Chapter Twelve
Rafe
One last time. He wanted to make love to his woman one last time. He wanted to feel her skin against his once more before he left this world But it wasn’t just Kiaia he wanted. He wanted to taste Shar for the first, and last, time. And he wanted Baz. So, he waited until everyone was sound asleep and then he quietly slipped from the bed. It wasn’t easy, not with how weak he was, but he managed to make it across the room to his hiding spot. Then he dug out the pills and went back to bed. He debated, should he take them right away and wake them up, or wait until morning? If he waited, he might not get the chance to have them all, so right away it was.
He took two pills, knowing full well he would regret it later, and waited for them to take effect. Soon enough he was feeling much better and he moved to wake Baz first. He needed a partner in crime, so to speak. “Baz, wake up,” he said, shaking him gently.
“What is it? What’s wrong?”
“Nothing’s wrong, but I do need your help with something.”
“What is it?”
“I want one last night with our girl. Or rather, one last night with all of us. Kaia will be pissed when she figures it out but I took the pills to give me some energy and strength to get through it. I need this. I know I’ll be gone in a few days. Give me this.”
“Fuck. Yeah, she’s going to be pissed, but I can’t deny a dying man his last wish. Let’s get our girls awake,” Baz replied with a grin. They moved in unison and dove beneath the covers. While Baz moved between Kaia’s legs, Rafe kissed a path up Shar's. When he reached the promised land, he dipped his tongue into her honeyed center and groaned. “I'm jealous you're going to get to taste this for years, when I only get one night,” Rafe said before he dove back in.
Soon both women were awake and moaning in ecstasy. “What the…? Oh fuck,” Kaia moaned. “Baz,” she panted just as Shar panted out “Oh, Rafe.”
That made the guys chuckle as they continued to suck and lick their girls to orgasm.
“Wow, that was…” Shar started.
“Not over,” Rafe told her. “I need to be inside you, sweetness, while Baz takes Kaia. Please say I can be.”
“Yes,” she whispered and he groaned.
“Thank the Gods,” he said, moving up between her parted thighs. He moaned as he slid into her. “Fuck, you feel good, Shar.”
“Fuck me, Baz,” Kaia panted from beside them.
“With pleasure, beautiful,” he replied, sliding into her. “Fuck, I'll never get enough of this,” he groaned.
“You and me both,” Rafe admitted.
The guys moved almost in unison, hips thrusting at the same time.
Rafe leaned down and kissed Shar before trailing his lips along her jaw. “You're beautiful,“ he murmured. “And you feel so good wrapped around my cock.”
