I chuckled not because of what he said but I noticed that the twins’ greedy asses finished their bottles at the same time.
“They greedy as hell.” I chuckled.
“I like to burp them at the same time too.” Bleu picked True up and placed him on his shoulder.
“That’s why you be overwhelmed! How the hell do you even burp them at the same time? You can’t do everything Bleu.” I shook my head as I lifted Kreu to my shoulder.
“Oh shit!” I moved my face away as Kreu tried to bite down on my cheek.
He meant business too because one of his tiny hands grabbed the bottom of my beard hair while the other hand tightened on one of my dread locs. Bleu laughed like the shit was funny.
“You better not drop my baby.” He chuckled.
“It’s time to start giving pop pops to his little ass.” I frowned.
“Don’t let Truly hear you say that.” He warned.
Bleu and I played with the twins until they took a nap. Two hours had gone by, and the women still hadn’t appeared. We end up smoking a blunt and talking until Truly finally got us and told us to join her and Jatavia for dinner. I sat right next to Jatavia during dinner. I said a silent prayer thanking God for givingputting me in position to just feel the fullness and love that I was experiencing.
I was blessed; there was no other word to describe it. The feeling settled heavy in my chest. I was blessed to get a second chance with a woman I experienced my first real love with. I thought about her good qualities, the ones that didn’t scream for attention. The way she listened instead of making it all about herself although in my mind it was all about her. I would happily put myself second just to make sure she remained happy with me but that was something Jatavia wouldn’t allow.
She noticed the small things about me, and she moved with good intention. She walked into my home and softened it with just her energy and light with shrinking in the midst of it. She didn’t love me for what I could buy or what my fans saw me as.
Jatavia loved me when I was still figuring trying to figure out myself. She saw potential in me before I became Big D. She was the kind of love that changed a man for the better. I didn’t feel like I had to dominate her because she was the type of woman that if you proved to be the man she expected you to be she’d easily submit. As long as I wasn’t guiding her to destruction, she willingly allowed me to lead. In return, I was going to make sure she had a soft life, living her dreams, stacking her money to do whatever she wanted to with.
I felt aligned and inspired to be the man that I always wanted to be. Life itself didn’t owe me a second chance but somehow, here it was. Wrapped in grace and I wouldn’t dare fuck it up from pride or old dumb ass habits. It probably was all happening all too soon for Jatavia but with time I would prove to her that she didn’t make a mistake by choosing me, again.
Chapter 20
Jatavia
Warm water ran over my hands as I looked out of Dreu’s kitchen windows into his backyard practically daydreaming. The counters were still partially covered with evidence of the big breakfast that I made for him and I. I didn’t mind cleaning the mess because today like every other day since I’ve woke up in this nice ass house… I felt good.
I was actually in the Christmas spirit a day before Christmas.What could possibly get better than this?I asked myself over and over. Soon as I snapped out of my daydream and finished the dishes. I wiped the counters and caught myself humming. Dreu was rubbing off on me in a major way. Depending on the mood of any situation, he could find his favorite R&B song and sing it. His ass never cared that he couldn’t sing either.
The holidays usually dragged something heavy out of me. Old grief, loneliness, and the depression that wrapped around my chest like fog. Thoughts of my brother Travis would sit on top of all of that as well and bring me down further to the pits of feeling nothing.
This year was different in a short period of time. Dreu had a lot to do wih that. He pulled me out of my head. Out of my body when I was already shut down. He reminded me withouttelling me what it felt like to be present. Just me laughing, eating normally, moving around, and daydreaming like I just finished doing. The moment my ass touched his truck seat, and he drove me from Vegas to Cali, I started to believe that my once far-fetched dreams could come true and they did.
Today felt even more special because my cousin Tammy was almost here. Just to know that I had solid people in my life willing to go the extra mile for me because they wanted me to be happy made me feel super grateful and emotional.
I checked my phone again and went to her location. She was getting closer. My stomach fluttered with excitement. We had a full day planned while Dreu tied up whatever last-minute business he had to do today. The first thing we were going to do was shop and go out to eat afterwards. I secretly wanted her help with picking out Dreu some more stuff.
The first thing I got him the other day was an expensive microphone for the studio. It had his name engraved in gold and also came with a special mic for when he performed on stage. Since it was Christmas Eve, we exchanged our gifts at midnight. It made my heart flutter to see Dreu super pumped about it. My gift had truly made him happy and that in itself made me happy.
Dreu gave me my gift, and my bottom lip dropped to the floor. He had iced me out with a diamond Cuban chain that sort of matched the one he had. It came with a matching bracelet encrusted with diamonds. Minds looked more feminine compared to his and the pear-shaped diamond earrings looked flawless against my brown skin.
I re washed my hands when I was done with the kitchen and heard Dreu footsteps before I heard him singing.
“Let’s talk about sex, baybe…Let’s talk about you and me! Let’s talk about bubbles in the tub! Let’s talk about making loveeeee!” His voice rose then cracked.
I laughed and turned around, and there his fine ass was. Fresh out the shower. Locs pulled up just the way I loved. His skin was moisturized to perfection. That masculine woodsy scent drifted up my nose. I took Dreu in and wanted to jump in his arms then wrap my legs around his waist. He was dressed simple in black jeans, a fitted tee, his jacket hung open just enough to show his broad chest.
He leaned against the doorway, eyes dragging over me slowly.
“Damn,” he said quietly, licking his lips. “You look sexy as fuck, Pancakes and you cleaned this kitchen spotless.” He crossed the kitchen in two steps.
Pulling me to him he covered my lips with his.
