My eyes widen at his words as the fear starts to creep in.
His lips ghost over mine, hovering there so I can feel the heat of his breath when he whispers, “Remember how good my fingers felt, baby?”
“Yes.” I shiver at the memory of him fucking me while fingering my ass. It had felt good, damn good actually.
“I need you to trust me, and give your body completely over to me.”
“I do trust you.” As scared as I am, I do trust him, and I know he’d never hurt me beyond what I can take, beyond what Iwantto take.
Sliding out of me, he looks down and says, “Hands and knees, baby.”
I do as he says, gripping the bedding beneath my hands, already feeling exposed and on display. I hear the nightstand drawer, but I’m too nervous to look behind me to see what he’s doing. His hand runs down my back, sliding along my spine before cupping one of my ass cheeks.
“Such a good girl,” he murmurs, and I swear my back arches like a damn cat, basking in his praise. “So fucking perfect.”
His hand leaves me, and when he brings it back, his fingers are coated in lube. He runs them over my puckered hole, teasing me and getting me ready for him. With a groan, he slowly slides one finger in.
“That’s right, baby, just relax for me.”
I take in a steadying breath and nod my head before he slides his finger all the way into me.
“Fuck, you’re so tight,” he growls, fingering me faster, filling the room with the erotic sounds that are so damn naughty in the best way possible. When I start to rock my hips, he gives my ass a sharp smack and slowly slides a second finger in.
“Oh god,” I moan when he speeds up, stretching me and getting me ready for something much bigger.
“That’s right,kiska. I am your god, but I’m also your devil and I’m going to give you every dark thing you’ve always secretly wanted but never dared to speak. I’m going to be your everything, just like you are for me.”
Sliding his fingers out, he gives my ass one more sharp spank, pulling a moan from me that has nothing to do with pain or fear and everything to do with how badly I want to give him this last part of myself, the part I’ve never given to anyone else. When he grabs onto my hips, I clutch the bedding even tighter and try like hell to not tense my body.
Gripping my cheeks, he spreads me even wider and presses the head of his cock against my ass. He’s coated himself in lube to make this as easy for me as possible.
“I’ve got you,kiska.” He presses harder against me, and my body immediately rebels, tightening up even though I want to let him in. He gives a soft laugh. “This ass is mine, sweetheart. Your body’s about to learn that.”
He presses harder, pushing past the tight ring of muscle as I gasp and fist my hands even tighter. The burn of it takes me by surprise, but it’s not as painful as I thought it would be. He growls something in Russian, sliding in just a bit more.
“You’re taking me so good, baby,” he praises. “Such a good fucking girl.”
I take another deep breath as he presses in even further. My body wants to push him back out, but I ignore that instinct and focus on relaxing as much as possible. When he’s fully inside me, I let out a whimper, gasping for air as tears fall down my cheeks. I’m overcome with so many emotions, unable to contain it all. I’m not crying from the pain, although it does hurt a bit. I just feel completely raw and exposed.
Leaning over me, he kisses my cheek, licking my tears and letting out another groan. “Give me your mouth,kiska.”
I turn my head, opening my mouth to him as he slides his tongue into me while he slowly starts to fuck my ass. The unfamiliar sensations overwhelm me, pulling moans from me as I struggle to process everything. He brings one hand to my neck, wrapping his fingers around me, squeezing me hard enough to steal my breath as he pounds into me.
“I told you I would break you, sweetheart, and you’re coming apart so beautifully for me.” He releases his grip, letting me suck in a quick lungful of air before he tightens his fingers again. “I want to see you shatter at my touch. I want to see you broken beneath me, and I want to be the one to bring you back to life.”
My lungs scream at me as I whimper, begging him with my eyes for air. He studies me, watching me, knowing exactly what I need but refusing to give it to me. My body wants to panic, but I refuse to give in to the fear. I trust him, and when he feels my body relax, he lets go, releasing my neck as bright spots dance across my vision.
I’m still gasping for air when I feel something nudge my pussy. “What?” I pant, dropping my head, I breathe out an “Oh my god,” as I watch him press the head of my purple dildo against my slit. “Too much,” I quickly say, lifting my head to face him.
“You think so?” He gives me a wink, slowing his hips down while he starts to feed me my toy. “Don’t you remember how much you used to love it?”
“Fuck,” I gasp, feeling like I’m going to split in two. “It’s too much.”
“I think my girl can take it.” He kisses me slowly, sliding the dildo all the way in. Keeping his body still, he gives me a second to catch my breath. His tongue runs over mine while my body trembles beneath him. “Break for me,kiska. Shatter into a million pieces until nothing else exists for you except me.”
All I can do is nod and try not to pass out when he starts fucking both my holes in a fast pace that quickly pushes me over the edge. I’d scream his name if I could, but all I’m capable of is letting out a long string of guttural grunts and moans as my arms give out and I fall to the mattress. I shatter beneath his touch, just like he promised I would, until there’s nothing left of me. All I know in this moment is a pure, raw ecstasy that’s so fucking beautiful it makes me sob.
“Fuck,” he growls, leaning back and gripping my hips, fucking me harder until he has no choice but to finally let go, coming inside me with my name on his lips. His cock pulses, filling me with everything he has until he’s empty and gasping for air.
