I'm suddenly overcome by the need to see him. To watch what he's doing to me. With effort, I raise myself onto my elbows, looking down my body at him, his head bent over as he sucks my impossibly hard dick into his mouth. With one hand, he caresses my abs, and the other hand pumps his finger gently in and out of my body. He shifts so we can make eye contact, his mouth stretched wide around my dick, and I feel like my soul leaves my goddamn body as he slides another finger inside me, crooking them both and grazing that bundle of nerves that makes me see fireworks.
"Unnngh… Fuck, Aleks, I need you. Need you inside me now." I collapse back, squeezing my eyes shut as I try desperately not to explode in his mouth. I want to feel him inside me. Fuck, I want to feel everything with him.Everything.
Releasing my dick from his mouth, he places hot, open-mouthed kisses from my groin to my hip bone. "You're ready? You're sure?" he asks, gently scissoring his fingers in a stretch that burns for a few moments before dissolving into overwhelming pleasure.
The noise that comes out of me sounds like some kind of animal in distress, and in my desperation, that's what I feel like. About to lose my ever-loving mind with pleasure, I'm afraid I might literally die if he doesn't fuck me right now.
"Aleks, please.. please…"I beg. I'm not even embarrassed about it.
"Okay, okay, baby, it's alright. I'll take care of you, don't worry," he soothes, and even though I'm so desperate, something settles inside me. He's so sincere and so fucking sweet. I watch him as he quickly rolls the condom over his hard dick, and I breathe a sigh of relief as he notches his cockhead against my entrance.
For a minute, vulnerability surges through me. It's been a while since I allowed myself to feel this with another person, but our eyes lock, and the only thing I see is someone who wants to make me feel good. Someone who cares enough to take care of me. I take a deep breath, willing myself to relax, and as he pushes forward into me, I reach out and touch his cheek with my hand. He wraps a hand around my dick and strokes me with a firm grip, sliding his hand upward, making me shudder at the pleasure.
Inch by inch, he slides into me, slowly enough that I can adjust to the intrusion, and I keep taking deep breaths, willing my body to open up all the way and allow him inside me as deep as he can go. I slide my knees up higher, breathing rhythmically in and out as he bottoms out inside me. A shiver rolls through his whole body, and a sense of pride fills me, knowing he's affected by this connection we have, the same as me.
He stops, his hips pressed tightly against my ass. His eyes search mine. "You okay?" he whispers.
"Yeah," I say softly, my eyes on his, my hand caressing his cheek. God, he's beautiful.
"God, you feel so good.So…good…" he whispers.
I move my hands to his ass and pull him impossibly tighter into my body. "Move!" I whisper urgently. "I need to feel you."
He groans and obliges, moving slowly inside me at first, and the sensation overwhelms me. I grab his face and yank him down into me, taking his mouth in a desperate kiss. It's like I can't get close enough to him. I want him to crawl inside me and live there. I never want him to leave my body. It's completely overwhelming. He slides his hand down my chest, grabbing my cock again and stroking. Leaning back, he groans loudly and thrusts into me harder.
I reach the peak and topple over it, crying out as all of my muscles tense and my vision whites out. I feel Aleks tense and fall over his own peak right behind me, and we fall together into what feels like perfection.
Chapter 19
BEN
Mondaymorning,bothAleksand I are in the office early, but I still feel like I’m living in a dream. This week promises to be busy, getting ready for the game later this week where we’ll be using the helmets for the first time in a real gameplay situation. I can’t even believe it’s finally happening, after so many years of hard work. We’re really on the verge of something great here, I can feel it.
Truth be told though, the main reason I’m walking around with a smile so big it looks like I’ve got a coat hanger stuck in my mouth is because of Aleks Warren. I’m completely gone for him. And I’m so fucked.
The rest of our weekend together was absolutely amazing. I mean, yeah, I’ve had plenty of relationships, but I’ve never been with someone where it feels so effortless. Like I don’t have to put on any armor. Aleks is amazing, and he likes me. I know that sounds like something I should be standing in front of a mirror saying to myself while combing my blond toupee. “Goshdarnit, people like me,” but it’s weirdly true. There aren’t a lot of people in the world who I can truly be myself with. No bullshit, just me. He lets me fuss over him and take care of things, which makes me feel needed. And… I’ve missed that, missed having someone to take care of. If I’m truly honest, I think I’ve been lonely for a while. I haven’t wanted to admit it, but it’s nice to have someone around. Someone to do things with. After spending the weekend together being all Christmassy and doing things I haven’t done since I was a kid, I realized how nice it was to have someone to enjoy that stuff with. I mean, I have Declan, but spending a whole day picking out a Christmas tree isn’t really something we would do together. And the fact that for some unknown reason I trust Aleks enough to let him be the one to take care of me, is like icing on this incredible cake.
Josie was released from the hospital yesterday morning, so we picked her up together, after I convinced him that getting her into my big SUV would be easier on her than trying to climb into his little Tesla.What, it’s true! No ulterior motive whatsoever…
As Aleks predicted, Josie supervised the tree decorating from a comfortable position on the couch. I really like her. She’s smart as a fucking whip and utterly fearless. I loved hearing some of her stories about Aleks from when they were kids, and even though I know she had a terrible home life, it was nice hearing some of her happy childhood memories, and it seems like Aleks appears in most of those. After decorating the tree, Josie napped on the couch while Aleks and I made cookies, and the woman must have been truly exhausted because although we tried to be quiet, we didn’t succeed very well, especially when a frosting war broke out with the red and green icing for the sugar cookies. Since we were both completely covered in icing, we had no choice but to shower to clean off at one point, which may have led to some other, moreadultactivities, but thankfully, Josie was passed out for that bit.
We brought her home to her place in the afternoon, and when I watched how sweet and caring Aleks was with her, fussing and making sure she had everything she could possibly need, I felt like the grinch whose heart grew two sizes that day. How could I have ever thought this guy was an entitled asshole? He’s one of the most generous, giving people I’ve ever come across.
After getting Josie settled, we took a drive around town to look at the Christmas lights on all the beautiful houses. Holding his hand across the center console of my car, stealing glances at him, and watching his eyes light up as he admired the lights felt like something I’ve been waiting for my entire life. It’s like Aleks fills a hole in my life I hadn’t even known was there. The warm feeling in my chest is something I could get used to, and the thought of not having him around makes something ache inside me.
I have no idea whether we could ever work out the messy history between our families. I still don’t even think Aleks knows about the connection, about what Kent did to my dad. If we did decide to try to make a go of this thing, that would have to be dealt with, obviously. But right now, just for a short while, I’m going to allow myself to have this. To have him. I’m already too far in over my head to avoid getting hurt, so if I’m going to be heartbroken anyway, I may as well make it worthwhile.
After returning to his place, we gorged ourselves on more cookies and then ordered pizza for a “proper dinner,” cuddled on his couch a little more, and then snuggled into his bed, where we enjoyed a long, leisurely fuck session and fell asleep in each other’s arms, feeling perfectly sated and happy. It was one of the best weekends of my entire life.
Partway through the morning, I’m alone in my temporary office going through some emails when my cell rings. It’s a number I don’t recognize right away, but the area code is from Boston.
“Dr. Ben Jacobs speaking,” I answer.
“Dr. Jacobs. How are you, young man?” Dennis Madsen’s warm voice comes through the line, bringing a wide smile to my face.
“Dr. Madsen, hello! I’m so glad to hear from you!”
“Benjamin, if you don’t start calling me Dennis the way I’ve been telling you to for the last ten years, I’m going to have to rip you a new one.”
