Jase
Charlie,
I enlisted. Just like we planned. Except you changed your part. I will never forgive you for this.
Jase
Charlie,
The weather here is shit. It’s fucking hot. Not the bipolar hot and cold, sunny and rainy of NY. Yeah, I got nothing else to say.
Where are you?
Jase
Charlie,
I had a dream about you last night. You were in the tree house and the walls were covered in your paintings…you looked at me through dead eyes. I’ve seen lots of that shit here, Charlie. Dead, glazed over eyes, just like Joey’s. Do you still have nightmares about him like I do? I wake up covered in sweat, gasping for air. The guys here think I’m losing it. Maybe I am.
Jase
Charlie,
I'm here in the great Douchebagistan. "You never really get the smell of burning flesh out of your nose entirely, no matter how long you live.” JD Salinger to his daughter about concentration camps when he was in the military in the 1940s - he was right. I really need my best friend to live through this.
Jase
Charlie
Okay so today I’m writing to tell you that I fucked another girl. Yep. I just went there. I hope you’re having just as much fun as I am.
Jase
Charlie
Happy anniversary of the day you fucking broke my heart. I guess that’s a little too harsh maybe. Nah, fuck you. Fuck you. I’m in the Middle East watching my friends die, and you fucking left me. You left me without any fucking clue.
Jase
Charlie,
How long will I love you? I can’t choose between forever and always.
Jase
Charlie,
Fucking drunk as shit. Let me say this. Get it out.
You were wearing a little white T-shirt with something on it and a pair of jeans with a rip above your right knee. You were the prettiest girl I'd ever seen. I never needed anyone more than I needed you. You were always part of my heart, but that day you completely stole it from me. And it's yours Charlie, keep it, ’cuz I'm not going to need it without you.
Charlie, you're the best choice I ever made in my life. It was you that helped me through boot camp, it was you that helped me say goodbye to Joey, you who helped me through Afghanistan. It’s always you. You're the girl I can't forget. Please tell me where you are.
Jase
Charlie
Don’t ever ask me to stop searching for you, because I can’t. Don’t ever think I’ll be able to forget you, because I won’t.
