So, did you find Emma at your brother’s or not?
Oh, I did. And so did my wife.
THE FUCK?!?
BRO!
YOU’RE MARRIED!?!?
I can’t really get into it through text, but I need to talk to her.
Please, it’s important.
If you hurt her, I’m not the only one that you’ll have to answer to. You know that, right?
I’m not trying to hurt her. I love her.
Oh shit, I thought you were just spanking her.
Jesus
Do you know where she is? Is she safe?
CHAPTER 35
EMMA
“Idon’t like lying to him. Can I at least tell him you’re safe?” Alyx asks, sitting next to me on the couch.
“I don’t want him to know I’m here.”
“I’m still pissed about the married part and the lying too, but he’s really torn up about it. Look.” He tilts the phone screen so I can read their last few messages.
My eyes get stuck on three words.
I love her.
Three words he’s yet to speak out loud to me.
Three words he’s hinted at and yet danced around.
Three words he’s probably telling his wife right now.
And suddenly his rules make sense. His cryptic words whispered in moments of passion that felt like they held a deeper meaning, come crashing into me.
It isn’t that he’s a professor, and I’m a student.
“Don’t make me fall more in love with you than I already am. Not when I can’t be with you the way you deserve.”
It isn’t the school rules keeping us apart, or the rules at Pulse. It isn’t even his list of dom rules that’s the issue. We can’t be together because he already has a life with someone else, already promised her forever and made vows to love her.
“Hey, it’s gonna be okay.” Alyx throws an arm over my shoulder, tugging me into his side. It’s an awkward hug with the way we’re sitting on the couch, yet I still find comfort in his touch. I’m not able to contain my emotions any longer and tears spill over my lashes, making what I’m sure are black streaks down my face.
“I don’t see how,” I cry as his hand squeezes my shoulder.
“For what it’s worth, I’ve never seen him with anyone at the club. And he definitely doesn’t treat his other subs the way he treats you. Also, he’s never asked me to reach out to anyone before.”
“Is that supposed to make me feel better? He was doing all that while still cheating on his wife. She probably doesn’t even know about his whole secret life as a dom. It’s probably all a lie.” I’m aware that I’m coming across like a whiny child, but I couldn’t care less.
