I look up at the ceiling as my tears fall, and Dirty squeezes my arm and rasps, “Please, Tyler.”
I slowly walk towards Ashley’s shitty front door an hour later, my bike already packed up, ready for me to leave after I say goodbye to Cole, to my wife.
Dad said he’ll pick our son up and keep him for the night so Ash and I can talk, and with how Ashley left the clubhouse, she agreed for him to collect our son.
Albert mentioned she vomited before leaving and I’m definitely expecting a fight. Even though my head is still pounding, my mouth sore from where Doc knocked the gun out of it, I’m here because she needs to know that I’m not runningfrom her, that I’m going to clear my head so I can somehow come to terms with what I’ve done so I can win her back and always kneel before her.
I knock on her door, and it takes her a while, but when she opens it, my heart fucking breaks seeing the heartbreak etched on her face, the redness surrounding her eyes.
“Hi, pixie,” I choke as I lean my palms against the doorframe, trying to stop myself from grabbing hold of her.
She looks up at me in a trance before so much fucking anger takes over her features, anger that I know I deserve.
Her nostrils flare as she says, “Hi? That is all you can say is ‘hi’ after you yet again chose yourself over me, over your son?!”
“Pixie, I–” my words are cut off as my cheek stings from her slap as my head moves to the side, my headache throbbing, and I blink.
Fuck me, that hurt.
“Hi?! Fucking hi!?” she screams before she punches my chest, and I stand up straight, allowing her to let her anger out. “You come here and say hi when you just tried to kill yourself,” another punch, “ ‘Hi’ when you just tried to leave our son, our innocent son?”
She pounds her fists onto my chest, her sobs coming from her, as she cries, “You tried to leave us, to hurt us, how could you? How dare you?”
I quickly wrap my arms around her and pull her into me, and she struggles, still hitting me as she cries, “How could you, Tyler? How could you do this to us, to our son?”
My tears fall, and I choke, “I’m sorry, pixie, so sorry,” and she continues to try and hit, crying her heart out, and it breaks me.
“You're selfish!” she cries, “So goddamn selfish for doing this…”
She pulls back to hit me again, but I don’t let her get close enough for the punch. Instead, I grab the back of her neck andkiss her hard and fast, her pain fucking killing me, making me want to grab my gun again.
I can’t handle it, I can’t handle that I did this to her.
She doesn’t kiss me back at first, still trying to hit me, but as soon as I bite her bottom lip and pull it with my teeth, she groans and fucking finally kisses me back as she grabs my cut, pulling me towards her.
I swipe my tongue into her mouth as I lift her, one arm wrapped around her waist, my hand still on the back of her neck, keeping her close to me. Ash wraps her legs around my waist, her arms around my neck, and I fucking swear, I feel at home again, like this is where I belong with her in my arms fucking always.
I blindly walk into her shitty ass apartment and slam the door shut with my foot before I blindly find my way to her room. The plans Dirty showed me when she rented the shithole showing the master at the end of the hallway.
I break the kiss when we reach her room to ensure it’s the right room then slam my lips back on hers again. My tongue instantly tangling with hers and I lay us on her bed, my body on top of hers as I bring my hand down and lift the tank top she’s wearing before breaking the kiss again and pulling it off her head.
Ash reaches for her wedding ring on my chain and pulls me back down, our lips touching again, her taste, her smell consuming me.
I feel her hands go to my cut and push it down my shoulders, and I help her before throwing it, not giving a shit if it lands on the floor, despite it being sacred as her hands go to my shirt.
I break the kiss and grab it from behind, pulling it off and throwing it on the floor before laying my body back over hers and pressing my lips against hers yet again and she kisses me back with just as much need. I groan as she nips my bottom lip before I slowly run my tongue down her chin and neck,sucking hard on her soft skin, ensuring to fucking mark her so that bastard sees it and stays the fuck away from her. Doc has ensured he’ll keep him away from her before I slowly move my down her to her collar bone, gently sucking where my name is tattooed as I move my hand behind her back and unclip her bra and tear it down her arms and throw it blindly.
I take a nipple into my mouth instantly, her taste overwhelming me with how much I have missed her.
Ash runs her fingers through my hair and grabs it hard as I nip and suck her nipple before moving over to the other one, giving it just as much attention causing her to moan.
“Tyler…” She gasps, pushing her chest into my face.
Fuck me that is sexy.
Giving her nipple one last suck, I slowly kiss and nip her sexy body as I climb down her, my hands instantly going to the waist band of her jeans and she arches her back, pushing her body harder against my mouth.
I hook her panties as well and drag both jeans and panties down her luscious legs before throwing them away. Without giving her a chance to think this is wrong, that she’s cheating with her husband, I quickly spread her thighs and dive in, my mouth instantly going to her wet, juicy pussy.
