“Dammit, Hayden. Please!”
“Please, what? Tell Papi what you want.”
“I need you in me. Fuck the foreplay.”
“Has my hole been empty up until this morning, or did you play?”
Shuddering and whimpering overtook me. “I tried. I tried so hard.”
“To what? What did you try so hard to do, vato?”
“To play. Nothing satisfied me. I tried every plug, every dildo. They left me wanting and frustrated. I couldn’t get off.”
“Hmmm, did you need permission to come?”
I couldn’t believe he figured it out so easily. I’d nearly punched the wall once I had. I’d been so fucking needy, but nothing I tried had worked. I’d even gone on a shopping trip, looking for something the same shape and size as him, but… nada.
“Yes,” I whispered, ashamed.
“Good boy. I’m proud of you. There’s no reason to feel ashamed.”
How did he know that? Was it in my voice? On my face?
“Did you think I’d be angry or disappointed?”
I whispered, “Both.”
“Hmm. When I’m deployed, vato, you have my permission to satisfy yourself. I wouldn’t have left you without giving you that had I known. I’m sorry.”
“You couldn’t have known. We’d not been apart for days before you were whisked away.”
“Would it make you feel better to know you had my head so fucked up that I didn’t get off until after I received the package you sent?”
“Really?”
Dear God. Where did that fucking needy, whiny voice come from?
“Yes. You were all I could think about, but it was…”
“Angsty bullshit that crept through the brain like fog on a dark night.”
He laughed. “Yes. Kinda like that.”
“Good. I’m glad. You’ve fucking ruined me. I can’t even fuck myself and get off.”
His fingers tightened around my throat, and I swallowed a gasp when he tugged at the plug in my ass. I thought,hoped, he would remove it, but he didn’t. He twisted and wiggled it, forcing it against the walls of my ass and rubbing all the right spots. I was at his mercy, and as much as I loved it, I hated it, too. I loved handing him control, but it was such a fucking fight to get to the point where my mind quit fighting my body’s need.
He spun us and tossed me on the bed, spreading my thighs so he fit between them. My legs found a home on his broad shoulders, and he rolled me up so my knees were next to my ears as his tongue plundered my mouth. Fucking me with his tongue until spots danced across my vision. My lungs burned, and still, I wanted more. More kisses, more domination, just more.
I wanted all of him.
I wanted to belong to him and be owned by him.
He wrenched his mouth from mine, and I tried reaching for him only to find my wrists crossed over one another and pressed to the bed by the hand he was holding himself up with.
“You make me fucking feral. Do you know that? Something about you turns me savage while making me want to be tender and gentle with you and care for you. You’ve completely fucked me up, vato. I’d give you anything.”
“Then fuck me, Papi. I wanna feel you. I don’t care how. I just need your big cock in my hole.”
