Page 14 of A Heart Adrift


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When the dance ended, he excused himself, distracted by a naval officer in uniform who drew him into conversation with two York shipbuilders.

“Tell us about theRelentless, Captain Lennox,” one gentleman said. “A three-masted ship of the line with seventy-four guns, aye? A gift from the governor of Nevis in the Caribbean for warring with buccaneers and securing shipping lanes in his province?”

His back to the ballroom, Henri spoke with ease about what he knew best, sharing details of his last cruise and the current careening on Indigo Island.

Another gentleman joined in. “You’re the talk of all the coffeehouses on the coast, not to mention broadsides and newspapers, with your black jacks and lucrative prizes.”

“Is it true you’ve captured more than thirty enemy ships in a twelvemonth?” an officer asked. “Spanish, mostly, as well as notorious buccaneers?”

“Much of it hearsay,” Henri countered. He shied from any praise or applause, though it was preferable to being vilified as a pirate. “As privateer, I simply align with colonial authorities in wanting the lawlessness by sea stopped.”

“Well, I for one welcome your return to port amongst us proud Virginians. ’Tis hurricane season, after all.”

Henri grimaced as a line began forming. He might be headed straight for a tempest with supper at hand.

The double doors of the dining room swung open. Like with dancing, those of highest rank went first, titled Virginia officials and whatnot, which left the Shaws somewhere in the middle. Quinn and Eliza were far ahead, at the front of the line behind Lady Lightfoot, thus removing one of Esmée’s familiar underpinnings. Thankfully, Father was at hand, speaking with a Williamsburg merchant. Behind them was her dear friend Kitty Hart, followed by...

Captain Lennox.

Esmée fixed her gaze straight ahead, feeling as wooden as a ship’s figurehead. Were his intense eyes boring into her stays-straightened back? Censuring her for sitting out the dancing more than she danced? Finding fault with her for being unpowdered and plain? Her plan to remain in the shadows backfired badly. Instead she’d gained unwanted attention because of her simplicity.

Breathe, lass.

Mightn’t the captain have forgotten all about her? Perhaps she’d left so little a dent in his conscience that she was all but invisible now. Certainly he’d had other flirtations since. She certainly couldn’t hold a candle to many of the young belles tonight in their whispering silks and winking gemstones.

The line crawled toward the dining room’s entrance, supper smells mingling with fragrant beeswax candles. She put a hand to her waistto finger her chatelaine, something she oft did when distressed. But it was a habit of no use to her now, for she wasn’t wearing it.

Places were sought, a great shuffling and fuss occurred, and Esmée found herself staring at the one remaining seat.

To the right of Henri Lennox.

All the other places around the immense table were taken, leaving her standing conspicuously. She dared not look at the captain, yet she felt his unease like a stone wall between them. Or was it her own discomfiture? She sat down and looked to her lap, a hammer tapping at her temples and threatening to flip her stomach.

How had they left it at the last? When they’d faced each other that final time in the Shaws’ townhouse parlor, their voices rising notch by notch?

“Marry me, Esmée.”

“I would, Henri, if not for the sea.”

“So the sea is the only obstacle between us.”

“It robbed my mother of my father. I would not have it rob me of you.”

“You would have me forsake my calling, then.”

“Better your calling than your wife.”

“Your stated reasons are your refusal, I take it.”

She had made no reply. And then, a decade’s absence.

Supper’s seating arrangement left Henri feeling keelhauled—roped and thrown overboard only to be dragged under the ship’s backbone to his doom. So far Esmée hadn’t said a word. The long table was wide enough that conversations across it were impossible. He tried to say a few words to the elderly lady to his left who was stone-cold deaf. Esmée seemed in a similar predicament with the gentleman to her right, who was more absorbed by laughter and talk farther down. Awkwardness did not begin to describe the arrangement.

Henri swallowed. Removed all regret and blame from his tone. He stole a look at her. “How does one account for ten lost years, Miss Shaw?”

Esmée’s pale hand stilled on her wine glass. The pearl ring she wore unearthed a long-buried memory. “One does not, Captain Lennox. Or, if left no choice, very carefully.”

Silence.