I want that in my life.
Someone who can be a goofball, just to make me laugh.Someone who can help me relax at the end of a long day and deal with things when they get tough.I want someone who won't treat me like a requirement and instead will look forward to spending time with me.Someone sweet and caring.
I want Covey.
I'm just not sure he’ll ever be mine.
I was so excited when I asked him to go to the charity event with me.I figure it was good for both of our images, but it also gave us a chance to spend time together without any of the guys around.We could just be Cici and Covey without the Pit Bulls interfering in any way.
I was really looking forward to just being with him and getting to see if there was a spark between us.When he canceled on me, I was devastated.I didn’t care about going to the charity event alone, I just wanted an excuse to spend an evening with Covey.
He never came out and said why he had to cancel, but I have a feeling he got scared.I know he’s in an awkward position with working for Dad and working side by side with Cord.Especially with them being best friends.Though both of them could make Covey’s life miserable, I don’t think they would.
Dad just wants me to be happy.He wants me to find the man I want to spend the rest of my life with and enjoy it.He wants to know I'm taken care of, but he knows money isn't an issue for me.Not when I'm helping run Scott, Powell, and Coleman.
Cord can be a little over protective of me, but I don’t think he’d have a problem with me dating Covey.He knows he’s a sweet guy and he’s not a player.Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a woman on his arm and that makes me like him even more.
I'm almost positive he likes me just as much as I like him, I just don’t know how to get him to take the leap and stop worrying about Dad and Cord.
My mind spins with thoughts of Covey.As much as I want him, do I really want to attach myself to a man who’s scared to put our relationship above the other ones in his life?Do I want someone who isn't willing to grab what he wants and tell everyone else to mind their own business?
Sure, I want a man who’s sweet and caring, but I’ve grown up around strong personalities who don’t take no for an answer.I'm sure part of me will always want the man I love to possess that quality as well.
“What’s got you stuck in your head?”Cord leans closer and watches me carefully.
He’s a fantastic brother, but he sees a little too much.He can tell when I'm lying or trying to keep things from him.Most of the time I don’t mind, but when it comes to my love life, I wish he’d drop it.
“Nothing.It’s just been a long week.I really should’ve gone straight home and gone to bed, but I didn’t want to miss seeing everyone.We don’t get to hang out as much during the season.”I smile sadly at him.
None of what I said is a lie and I'm hoping it’s enough to satisfy him without making him want to poke a little more.
“You know you’re always welcome at our home,” he says softly.
“I know, but I don’t want to be a third wheel.”
Cord married Macy, one of my best friends.I'm so happy they finally figured their relationship out and got back together.I truly think they were made for each other and I would’ve been devastated if either one of them had ended up with someone else.
It’s still weird hanging out with them though.I don’t want to be awkwardly sitting there when Cord kisses Macy.I don’t want to feel like I'm left out when they share a private joke or when they have one of their silent conversations.I love them both but being around them with no one else around is awful.
“You’re never a third wheel,” Macy hisses, leaning across Cord to get right in my face.“I love my sister and I want her around.”
“I know, but it’s different now.”
“I'm sorry,” she whispers as tears fill her eyes.I instantly feel bad.I know she’s been having a really hard time with her emotions since she got pregnant.Cord says some days it’s miserable and because Macy doesn’t like to be emotional, it’s even worse.
“Baby, she didn’t even say anything to make you cry.”Cord wraps an arm around her and chuckles as he kisses her temple.
“I didn’t want it to be different.I can give him back if that would help,” she offers, making me pinch my lips together so I don’t laugh.Cord’s going to lose it in three… two… one…
“No, you can't!You have my baby in your belly.You can't get rid of me now.”
“Plenty of people get divorced who have kids.”She waves him off.
“And we won't be one of them and you know it!Jeez, Mace, she’s not upset we’re married.She’s just saying it’s different being friends with someone who is married.She’s not wrong, but that doesn’t mean we should break up.”
“I don’t want you splitting up, Mace.I'm happy you’re together.”I shake my head at how ridiculous she is.
“Good because I kinda like him.I didn’t really want to give him up, but I would’ve for you.”She blows me a kiss.
