He drew close and his clean scent swarmed her. His touch was so warm on her thigh. Already lost to sensation, she gasped. When his fingers slid between her legs, pushing aside her panties, she was wet and ready for him.
They fumbled, knocking noses as they kissed, but when he hoisted her legs up around his waist, his movements were strong and sure.
She was sure, if only about this one thing.
Alex entered her with a deep thrust and rocked against her.
Such sweet, aching fullness.Yes, fill me.
Dana closed her eyes. And forgot everything.
***
As Alex Markov disposed of the condom, wrapping it in a paper towel, his heart was still racing.
What have you done?
If Dana recognized him and went to the papers, it would only add to the speculation that had been hounding him for over a year.
The thought made him break out in a cold sweat.
He waited for the lights to go on, for that glimmer of recognition that would make her shout.Oh, my God. You’re Alex Markov!
But it didn’t.
She was too busy adjusting her clothes and wasn’t even making eye contact.
It was a probably a good thing. He was tired of seeing his humiliation reflected in other people’s eyes.
He’d just broken one of his own commandments.Don’t get involved.
One could argue he was hardly involved with Dana…what was her last name, anyway? Even still, their conversation, short as it had been, was probably the deepest one he’d had in ages.
Alex didn’t do deep, not anymore, and yet something about Dana had coerced him out of his shell.
It had been over a year since he’d had sex, unless he counted all those nights of lonely masturbation when he’d needed to alleviate his sorrow.
To think it had happened in a dirty bar bathroom with a perfect stranger.
He washed his hands, wishing he was alone so he could splash some on his face. He looked over his shoulder at Dana as he reached for another paper towel.
The cheap paper was scratchy, so unlike her skin.
Would it be weird to ask her out after what they’d done? Probably.
Besides, he didn’t date.
At the same time, for the first time in ages, he was tempted to try. Tempted to break more of his rules, tempted to prolong this…whatever this was.
Dana wouldn’t thank him for it, not in the end.
All sorts of questions raced through his head, making him wonder if he’d been wrong to hole himself up. Uncertainty and shame had been Alex’s reality for so long. He second guessed himself a lot, even if he never showed it.
For a few, sweet seconds, balls deep inside Dana’s sweet body, he’d never been as sure of anything. As soon as he withdrew, he was filled with doubt again.
Better to end this. He would only hurt her in the end.
It’s what he did.
