We spotted one wolf in the distance and dropped under the cover of a bush. I wanted to scream how frustrated I was, but Megan and Nix kept me under wraps.Why am I struggling this much?My words were a soft whisper, but Nix still heard me.
Our heat is coming in fast, so our emotions are running high.Nix nuzzled my shoulder.
Why aren’t you and Megan more affected?My anger was still bubbling away under the surface.
She pulled back as if I slapped her.You have locked us out still.
What?I shook my head.That’s not true…I trailed off as I said it because if I was being honest, I don’t even remember shutting them off.
Megan called back an agreement.Yeah, you are keeping everything locked up tight. Have been since the bees.
Nix settled next to me and put her head on my lap.You did your best to save us from the pain, which, while appreciated, wasn’t necessary. I know you did it so we could focus on Rick’s wolf. But you shut the door between us, and you have been bottling up everything on your side.
We know you are trying to protect us. But this is becoming a bit of an issue. You’re dealing with all the frustration and anger that comes before a heat. BUT you are doing it alone.
Nix rolled and looked up at me.Let us back in Amy. We can handle the burden together, instead of apart.I stared at my wolffor a few more seconds before I closed my eyes and looked for the door. Nix snorted.Get up.
I snapped my eyes open.What?
Get up.Nix nudged my side.You're thinking as if you are fronting. But you are already here in your mind. Closing your eyes to visualize something doesn’t work if you are already here. Get up.She nudged me again and I stood.Follow me.
We started jogging. She ran through the trees, past the clearing with my magic, and over to the far side. I looked around.Where are we?
This is deeper inside of you. You passed by here in the dark when you met Megan and your magic, when they lived hidden away from you.She ran a little longer and stopped beside an ornate door. The filigree moulding was out of place here in my mind.Fancy, isn’t it?
What the hell is a random door doing here? And why does it look like this?
Nix snorted.You don’t recognize the door?I shook my head.When we were about three or four. Our father took us to the King’s palace. Rowan was a teenager who hated everything about us, but this is a door there. You fell in love with it.Nix looked at me.Now open it.
I took a step, wrapped my fingers around the knob, and pushed it open.
The anger dissipated a little, and I felt like I could think clearly. I took a deep breath as Megan ran the rest of the way to the cabin and we shifted right as the back door opened. My mother stepped out with a frown. “Where have you been?” She growled softly. “I woke up, and you were gone.”
I snorted. “I went for a run.” I tried to slip past her, but her hand snapped out.
“That’s all?” Her eyes tightened, but I just kissed her.
“Let’s sit down for breakfast and I’ll go over what happened.” She watched me for another second and then nodded. We walked into the cabin and Wendy was serving the two girls breakfast.
“Hey.” She turned to me and lifted a brow. “You went out early.” I nodded.
I turned to the two girls. “Once you two eat breakfast, can you guys do me a favor?” I walked over to Carly and kissed her head.
“Of course.” Carly bounced as she smiled up at me.
“Yes.” Abby smiled.
I looked her over and rubbed her head. “How are you feeling today?”
Abby’s smile got bigger. “Great.” She did a little shimmy in her chair. “Better than any of my best days.” She looked up at me with wide, happy eyes. “Am I really cured?”
“You tell me.” I laughed. “You just said that you feel better than you ever have felt, even on your best days.”
She nodded. “I’m not tired and there is no pain.”
Rick and Shelly came to the doorway for the dining room. I winked at them over Abby’s head. “Any symptoms at all?” I questioned with a raised eyebrow.
She really thought about it before she shook her head. “I feel good.”
