I slid my chair back, slamming it against the wall, and I started to pace.How is this happening? We haven’t met our mate. We only went into heat because of the kudzu. How is this even possible?
Both my wolves looked away. But Nix looked back almost guiltily.Once a wolf goes through a heat, it is possible for them to go through another. There are just circumstances that add to the likeliness of it happening.
Which are?I grabbed the menu again.I needed meat. Now.“Alannah?”
“Yeah, Amy?” She was at my door in a second, looking a little confused.
I handed her back the menu. “My brain won’t let me focus. Can you order me some steaks? Rare. I just need meat.” I turned away. “And carbs.”
She looked at me for a minute and obviously realized there was something off, and she agreed. “Of course.”
I turned my attention back to my wolves.Now spill. How did this happen?They both dropped down and looked at their paws. They were guilty of something.Talk to me!
Megan sighed.We are sorry; we didn’t realize it until today and now it is too late, it’s already building.
What happened?
Erubus happened.Nix finally met my eye.Erubus caused it.
I staggered back to my chair and sat down.What do you mean? What did he do to us?
Nothing. Megan surged to her feet. He didn’t do anything but be our friend.
I looked at my two wolves, and I was at a loss for my words.I’m confused. Help me understand.
Nix nodded.After a wolf goes through her first heat. It can be triggered again, even if it was forced on us. But usually only by meeting our mate…or more herbal intervention.
Like more kudzu.
Exactly. But…Nix looked away.It can also happen if the wolf is around another wolf they like…like a chosen mate.
If I wasn’t already sitting, I would have fallen to the ground.But we don’t have a chosen mate. We don’t have any freaking mate.
Megan nodded.We know that…but our hormones don’t realize it.
Because…I looked at my two wolves and I shook my head.You guys…you can’t be serious. He already hurt us.
They both nodded.We know. And it wasn’t intentional.Nix looked back to the trees and sighed.We didn’t want this to happen, but without Rowan interfering with him, Erubus is-
Amazing.Megan finished for her. She looked at me with sad eyes.After Brandon, I was set on never having another mate. Not one I would love. I would do it for you two, but I was going to hold myself outside. Away from the feelings, the emotion.
Then what happened?
Erubus happened.
Chapter Fifty-Four
Icovered my face with my hands.He doesn’t want me.
My wolves laid down and I knew they were sad.We know how you feel about Rowan. How you feel about Thoth, even if you aren’t going to admit it. We already told you we won’t interfere, but Erubus just snuck up on us.Megan huffed out a breath as she flopped over.
Nix nodded.We thought we were just getting past the anger and the hurt that the two of them caused us. So that we could all learn to work together. And we did.Nix sighed as she laid her head down on her paws.
Okay. I can understand that. I sat back. But what happened?
He was just…himself. No interruption. No human getting in the way with his emotions. Rowan talks himself out of a lot.Nix shook her head.He takes a lot onto himself, more than needed.He thinks that his mate will make or break the realm.Nix sighed.I feel bad for the weight he forces on himself. He must be exhausted all the time.
Megan nodded.He never pushed us, never made me feel excluded or uncomfortable.
