Wait.Megan stood and stalked closer to Nix.
“Megan.”
No, she got to say her peace, and now it’s my turn. Then you can weigh in.I was a little taken aback. Megan was standing up to both of us. But she growled, loudly.You are both stupid, so if I have to stand up to you, I will.
Nix just looked at her, a little stunned.Okay, Megan. We are listening.
First, I don’t think either of us has any right to say anything to Amy.Nix reeled back. You were stupid enough to think you could handle the magic on your own and you made me promise not to fucking tell Amy, and we both almost died because of it. We were so vulnerable to the kudzu because of our stupidity, not Amy’s.Megan stalked closer, getting into Nix’s face.And now you are here saying that she is pathetic. Aren’t you the same? Every time you see Erubus, you roll over. You pretend to stand your ground, say that he has to work for you, but the truth is you run from him. You aren’t brave enough to chance what happened to us because of Brandon. At least Amy put herself out there. She told Rowan she liked him. But you just pretend to be so much more put together, but the truth is you’re afraid.
Megan.Nix’s voice was dark.
No, don’t try to shut me up. I’m tired of pretending. You disappeared into the forest because Erubus disappeared and then Rowan was acting like a dickhead. You were hurt and instead of talking to us; you pulled away. You say Amy is pathetic, but she is the only reason we are still alive. And you are just as infatuated as she is.
“Megan…” I called, but she was mad. Really mad.
No Amy. I need to say this.She whirled on Nix. Amy was poisoned by kudzu, and we were all affected. But don’t fucking stand here and pretend that Amy was the only one calling after some man.
Megan, you need to watch yourself here.Nix stood back up on her feet. She towered over Megan, but my Gamma wolf didn’t even flinch.
“Megan, it’s okay.” I tried to calm her down, but I watched her fur bristle.
She looked towards the barrier between us and shook her head.It’s not okay. Not for one fucking second it this okay.She turned back to Nix and growled.You are the reason we were too weak to fight the kudzu. You were the reason we were in this mess.
Shut up!Nix growled.
Why? Because you don’t want Amy to know that when she was burning with need for Rowan, being pathetic, as you called it. You were rolling around this fucking clearing, calling for Erubus?
The world stopped for a minute, and then my wolves were lunging for each other. I slipped on the tub, slicing my leg as I struggled to reach for them. I turned inwards, sending myself into my mind, chasing after my wolves. “Stop.” I called as I reached the carrier, but they were fighting each other, and they were vicious. I pushed through the separation and ran to my clearing, diving between the two, earning myself a few bites in the process before they realized I was there. “I said stop!” I screamed as both latched onto me, and then jumped back.
“Amy!” both of them called as they realized, and I dropped to my knees. Blood poured from my shoulder and my hip where they bit. Nix circled. “You are so fricken stupid.” She licked the wound at my shoulder, the one higher up where she got me. Theblood slowed and Megan stepped up, cleaning the wound on my hip.
“I’m sorry I didn’t notice you jumped in.” Megan went back to cleaning the wound.
“Don’t apologize.” Nix hissed. “She knows better than to jump between two fighting wolves.”
The venom in her voice was thick. I pushed her away and stared at her. “And you should know better than to attack Megan when she was just telling me the truth.” I watched her recoil a bit. The anger in her eyes surged, and she gave a half-hearted growl. I just stared at her. “You can be angry at me. I don’t mind. You were right. But I expect you to also recognize your own shortcomings. Including the blind spot you have for Erubus. You can be angry at me, at yourself, even at Megan for being able to not act like a jackass like we were. But you’re not allowed to attack her for voicing her opinion. That isn’t allowed. Not only because you’re bigger, but because you are her Alpha, and she did nothing wrong. Are we just like Vince now? Throwing our position and power around for no reason other than we can?”
She sat back on her haunches. “You’re mad.”
Megan sat next to me and I stroked her fur. I shook my head. “I’m not mad. I’m disappointed.”
She fell back and looked at me with hurt in her eyes. “Disappointed…in me.”
I shook my head again. “I’m disappointed in us.” I struggled to my feet. “We are supposed to be one unit. Working together for a goal. But these past few months we have all been working separately. I was trying to train, go to class, learning how to hack, while you two were off fighting magic you couldn’t handle alone. And then we were forced into a heat, and instead of working together, we separated once again. Megan was forced to handle the two of us. She was the only one that kept her head.” I turned to her. “Wait…how did you keep your head?”
“Because…I’m the only one of us that actually went through a full heat before. It gets easier the more you have.”
I tilted my head. “I never had a heat in my last life.”Megan laid down, and Nix inched closer. “Actually, you did.” I looked over at Nix, who was staring down at Megan. “In our last life, I agreed to mate Brandon, but he wasn’t my mate.”
“I know.”
She looked away. “No, what I’m saying is because he wasn’t my mate, he never pushed me into a heat. But Megan here, she did go through them.”
“Them?”
But Nix pushed on. “But because you didn’t know Megan even existed, you were kept separate. Her soul never directly touched yours. So during your last life, when you never went into heat and Brandon was upset—saying you were defective like Shannon said—that wasn’t true at all. It’s just… Megan went deep into the forest to suffer alone while I enforced the separation.”
“Why?” I turned to Megan. “You didn’t need to suffer alone.”
