“Collins did?” Kodi asks.
“Like Collins McKee?” Sin adds.
“Our sweet, angel baby Collins…” Darcy exaggerates, then whispers, “is a freak?”
“I haven’t even told you the best part.” I giggle because my friends are rarely this shocked by my sexscapades.
“His cock is pierced,” I add on conspiratorily.
“No.” Kodi gasps.
“Fucking.” Darcy adds.
“Way.” Sin finishes.
I say smugly, “It was so good you guys.”
“I will never look at him the same way again.” Darcy says, her cheeks bright red from the information I just shared.
“And I can never eat off his counter again,” Sinclair says brazenly and I give her my middle finger.
“Since all that’s out of the way. Be truthful with us, then. Do you want more with him?” Kodi adds, eyeing me suspiciously.
“I think I do.”
“Have you told him?” Ko asks.
“Obviously not! I can’t do that.”
“What? Why not?” Darcy asks.
“Because that makes it real.”
“Versus what? Fake. Babes, it was never fake. Anybody could see that from a mile away, even if you guys were telling each other it was.” Sin encourages.
“We only knew there was something else going on because we know you. That after Benji, you weren’t going to let someone in easily. Real or not.” Darcy tacks on.
“Plus, he’s had eyes on you… like forever?” Kodi adds.
“Just talk to him. I don’t think it’s going to end the way you think it might.” Darcy tells me, placing her hand over mine. “He’s not Benji.”
“I know, and that’s what’s so scary. I know he won’t hurt me and I know he’ll take care of me. I know this could last.” I sniffle, emotions clog at the back of my throat.
“I think you should tell him that. It’s okay to be scared.” Kodi validates the fear.
“Okay, I will,” I say.
I leave Wake, Bake, Repeat with a renewed sense of confidence in letting Collins have every part of me. For real.
As I’m lying in bed that night, my phone begins to vibrate beside me. Seeing that it’s Collins, I take a few calming breaths, hoping that I can maintain my composure and not spit out everything. I don’t want to spill this information over the phone, and I won’t be able to see him until they get back from their away game.
Pressing answer, “It’s past my bedtime, ya know?”
“Yes, but I wanted to check in again after last night. Plus I’ll be busy the next few days and wanted to hear your voice.” Collins’ soothing voice comes through the speaker.
“I’m okay. I promise, I wasn’t lying when I told you that you did everything right.” I reassure him. The way that he’s made sure to check in every step of the way is just another reason that I’m ready to take the next step with him.
“Okay.” He sighs into the phone, “I just needed to be sure. The highs after sex can blur the emotions, and I needed to know you’re okay.”
