I couldn’t control the way one corner of my mouth lifted in a lopsided smirk. “Mostly.”
She studied me for a moment before she dusted off her hands and leaned forward to put the bowl of popcorn on the coffee table.
“Okay,” she said, pulling her legs up beneath her as she turned her body toward mine. “What do you want to talk about?”
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “I think we need to talk about what’s been going on with us.”
“I told you everything last time.”
“I know you did. But that’s not exactly what I mean.”
“What do you mean?” She arched her brows as her green eyes bored into mine.
I was an adult, so why did I feel like the kid who was in trouble? She was strong and sure of herself, of her decisions. I was the one shrinking and finding it hard to keep eye contact.
“I just… I want to make sure that you’ve thought this through. I mean, what would your parents think?”
Her eyes narrowed. “Why do my parents have to find out?”
I smirked as my brows lifted. “Oh, I see. So you’re just wanting to use me for a good time? Is that it?”
She laughed. “No, I mean… I guess I haven’t thought that far ahead. What I feel for you isn’t just physical. It’s deeper than that. But this is so new and different from anything else I’ve ever done that I can’t exactly promise things will work out.”
I nodded. “And if things don’t work out, would you regret it?”
I watched as she ran her tongue across her lips, wetting them. She pulled the bottom one into her mouth and bit down gently. After a moment of thinking it over, she released it, and her eyes found mine again.
“I don’t think so. I mean, it doesn’t matter if we do this or if I were to start dating some guy I go to school with. I have to take this next step with someone. At least if I do it with you, I’ll know that it was real, that it was more than some in the moment need. I trust you?—”
“You shouldn’t.”
“But I do, and I always have. I know that if I give myself to you, my mind and body, you’ll do everything you can to protectme. And I know that because that’s what you’ve always done. I can’t say the same for anyone else.”
My heart started to pound against my chest as I listened to her, because I knew that she was right. At some point in her life, she would enter into a relationship with someone. She was going to fall in love, give herself to some guy who would break her heart, because that’s how things go. But with me, I would never. Or I’d try really fucking hard not to. The issue was that she trusted me, but I didn’t trust myself, and that was scary.
She reached out and took my hand, squeezing it gently.
“I trust you, Roman. To keep me safe, to love me in whatever way you can, to show me what real passion is, and how to cure the need that’s been building inside of me.” She lifted herself and swung her leg around until she was in my lap, straddling me. She released my hand and moved her hands to cup my face. My hands instantly moved to her hips, where I squeezed and rocked her against my cock that was growing harder against her.
I hadn’t intended on coming out here to make whatever this was happen. In my mind, I was going to apologize and promise never to do it again. But, fuck, one look into her pretty eyes, and I was a goner.
Her eyes rolled back when her clit rubbed against the seam of my sweatpants, and a soft whimper fell from her lips.
“Please don’t change your mind this time,” she whispered, leaning forward where her forehead rested against mine. I lifted my hips, letting her rock against me again, and she gasped. “This is so much better than a pillow.” Her mouth crashed against mine, and for the first time, neither of us held back.
Our lips moved fast, perfectly in sync with one another. I kissed her hard, our tongues moving, dancing, and tangling with one another’s. My hands rocked her hips forward and back as we kissed, driving us both insane with need. My heart poundedagainst my chest, and I was breathless, a mixture of our kiss and the excitement racing through my blood faster than light.
I trailed my mouth down to her chin, peppering her skin with kisses as I worked my way up her jaw. Once I got to her ear, I whispered, “Have you been rubbing yourself against my pillows as you fantasized about me?” I nipped her earlobe with my teeth.
She fisted my hair and doubled her efforts. Nodding, she moaned in agreement.
“Such a naughty thing to do, Sasha.” I slammed my mouth down on hers and tightened my hold on her hips as I stood, holding her against me. Her legs wrapped around my waist as I carried her to my room. I closed the bedroom door behind us, locking it so I didn’t have to worry about Sophia walking in. I hadn’t ever been with a woman in my house since she’d been alive. I didn’t want to worry about her walking in on something she wouldn’t understand.
I carried Sasha to my bed and lay her down before taking my place on top of her. If I had any reason to doubt her virginity before, I didn’t anymore.
She loved every little touch, kiss, and nip of my teeth, almost like every inch was overly sensitive. I pulled off her tank top first, not surprised to find her completely bare beneath. Her breasts were so fucking perfect I nearly groaned at being able to see them finally. I’d noticed on several occasions when her nipples would pebble up beneath the cotton of her shirt. It had taken all my willpower to look away when that happened.
My hands completely covered her tits as I buried my face in her neck, kissing, sucking, and biting my way down her flesh. I kissed her collarbones and down to her breasts. I sucked one of her hard nipples into my mouth. Her back arched off the bed. She let out a deep gasp and begged for more when my tongue lashed her nipple over and over.
