But that’s not my choice.
She must sense my hesitancy because she pulls away from my kiss. “Ryder?”
Not wanting this moment to end, I kiss her again and let my free hand slip between her legs, where she’s soaked with her juices, her pussy swollen and ready to take me.
Chloe moans into my mouth. “I want you, Ryder. Please.”
She’s begging me. How can I say no? But…
“I don’t have a condom, kitten.”
Beneath me, she stills, hesitating for only a moment. “It’s okay. I’ve never been with anyone else.”
I already knew that but hearing it again from her lips is amazing. I can’t help but slip my finger between her folds into her tight, wet heat. “I have.” I fuck her slowly with my finger. It’s a poor substitute but her tight cunt clamps down on my finger. “But I’ve always used a condom. I’m clean.” That’s not the real risk, though. “Are you on birth control?”
“It’s fine.” She shakes her head. “I’m fine. I just…I want you, Ryder. Please.” The last word is little more than a moan. “Ineedyou.”
There are so many reasons I should get up out of this bed right now and walk away. But there is one very good reason to stay.
Chloe.
The idea of being bare inside her is irresistible. It’ll be her first time. But mine too. I’ve never allowed myself to go unprotected before. But with Chloe, it feels right.
Fuck.
Itwillbe right.
“Okay.”
I see the relief on her face but it’s unmatched to how I feel inside.
“I’ll go slow, okay?”
She shakes her head and clenches my arm. “No. Don’t treat me like a virgin, Ryder.” She must see the question in my eyes. “I need to know what it’s really like. I need to feel it the way I would write about it.”
Right. Research.
It’s a stark reminder of why we’re here in the first place and what she wants from me when I want so much more.
But I’m not a stupid man. I’ll take what I can get. And if this one night is all I’ll ever have with Chloe, I’ll take it. All of it.
And deal with the consequences later.
She’s already so wet and ready for me, but no matter what she says, she’s still a virgin and I’m not exactly small. She has no idea.
“Kitten, it’s going to hurt a little but only for a second, okay?”
She nods and bites her bottom lip. She’s so sweet. So innocent. I’m going to change that tonight. And maybe I’m going to hell for it, but I can’t fucking wait.
I kiss her again, slow and deep until she’s gasping for breath against my lips. My hand once more slips between her legs, and I sink two thick fingers inside her again. I stretch her gently in an effort to ready her for my massive cock.
The whole time, I keep kissing her until she’s moaning and squirming against me. She lifts her hips in an effort to relieve the growing pressure in her clit.
She’s ready, so I slip my fingers out and notch the thick head of my pulsing hard-on against her wet opening. Her eyes grow wide at my touch but when she realizes what’s about to happen, she squeezes them tight.
“No,” I say. “Look at me, kitten. I need to look in your eyes.”
Her lids flutter open and she does as I ask.
