There.
“YOU WERE ASSAULTED, but he wasn’t. You can’t give your lover some attention? You don’t have to let him fuck you, Corbin, but come on. A hand job. Heavy petting. He’s a bottom, and you’re not. He has needs, too, and the bottom will put their lives on hold for their person. You’re playing nun and forcing him to also.”
Corbin blinked.
That hit him hard.
It really did.
Oh, and Gene wasn’t done.
“You don’t have to have sex to get your partner off. When I’m in bottom mode, or when I was prior to EJ, I didn’t get off a lot. No one touched me. I was there to offer pleasure to my top. Maybe your bottom needs some pleasure. You can fool around and not have sex. If you can’t bear to be touched, tell him that, and you touch him. It’s that simple. You might be recovering, and sex isn’t for you, but he’s not recovering, and sometimes, sex is badly needed to have peace.”
He said nothing.
So, Gene pushed on.
“Are you afraid to touch his dick?” he asked. “Does that freak you out?”
It took him a second, and Gene was really trying to be patient with the man because he was a victim, but he couldn’t let Corbin make that his whole identity. Then, he’d never get out of it alive.
“No.”
He continued.
“Are you afraid to make out with him and use a toy on him?”
He shook his head.
None of those things, as he mentioned them, freaked him out, and none of those things made him feel panicky. It would just not get him hard.
That part of him had disappeared.
Giving Will pleasure didn’t scare him at all. The thought of it just didn’t turn him on.
“Then why aren’t you taking care of his needs? Yeah, you were raped, Corbin, and that takes time, but he wasn’t. If he’s giving you clues about sexual pleasure, maybe take them. Use what he’s sharing, and take that into consideration. A relationship has to be fostered. You can’t ignore a person’s needs because yours have changed. If you do that, it’ll slowly die.”
He never thought about getting Will off, but still not having to have sex.
It didn’t horrify him.
The idea of it wasn’t horrible.
“You can make your man cum, and just watch. If you can’t bear to give him head, jerk the man off. Use a toy in his ass. You can get Will off, so he’s not forced to jerk off in a shower somewhere. You need to foster a relationship through the good and the bad times, period, despite him saying he’d give up sex. No man wants to do that, Corbin. He’s saying that for you out of love.”
He heard what he was saying.
Only, Gene wasn’t done.
“I’m going to hold your hand while I tell you this. You need to hear it. Know it comes from a good place.”
Well, that couldn’t be good.
“You’re being selfish, and I’ll be the first one to tell you that. I love you, but get the hell off that high horse and stop beinga dick to the man because he’s had a kinkier past than you. I had a kinkier past than Ethan, and he’s learning so he can view it from my perspective. Will is giving up his life for you, so the least you can do is not sentence him to a sexless existence because you’re not ready or because you want to judge his past!”
Corbin just stood there, dripping wet.
“Why are you neglecting him and punishing him because he had sex partners who did different things before you? That’s not like you, Corbin. You’re not a mean person, so why this now?”
