“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.” Even though he’s cursing, it sounds sacred—beloved. That’s how he makes me feel.
He collapses on top of me. Neither of us speaks for a long time, but it’s back to the comfortable silence. I know what we are now. I know he wants me.
With his dick still nestled inside me, he kisses the soft crook of my neck. We don’t need words.
“How do you feel?” he finally murmurs. “Are you okay?”
“I feel perfect. Just divine.”
It’s an understatement, even though some would assume it’s too dramatic. I’ve never felt better than I do with his weight pressed to me, pinning me to the ground. As heavy as he may be, I’m floating. I’m in another realm.
“Exactly what I want to hear.” He sucks at my neck—not hard enough to leave a mark, but enough to make me feel it. “Every time we’re together, that’s how I want to make you feel. That’s all I want.”
Every time. That means this won’t be the last time. My heart soars.
“You know what would make me feel even better?”
He pulls back, finally looking at me with twinkling eyes. “Name it. I’ll do it. Anything. You want to go to Spain?”
“No!” I giggle. “I want to go to bed… with you.”
“That.” He stops to kiss me, pressing several soft kisses to my lips. “I can definitely do that. Come on.”
Chapter Eighteen
THEO
Nothing could have prepared me for how spending a night with Evie rewired my brain. One night with her in my arms, and I became a new person. Even though I’ve been single for too long, I’m not without experience.
I know this is how things tend to feel initially, at least for most people, but it isn’t for me. I’ve never felt this free, even though we’re not free at all. There are so many reasons for us to keep it all under wraps.
I don’t care anymore. She’s all I care about. I cancel all my appointments the next day, making sure it’s done before she wakes up. I’m careful as I do it, texting with my back to her.
This is our day, and I plan to make the best of it.
It would be easier if we were back home. I don’t know any good date spots here, and I don’t know the language, but I’ll pull every connection I have to make sure I can treat Evie the way she wants to be treated.
I roll over and climb on top of her, burying my face in her neck. This is already becoming one of my favorite places—on top of her, releasing all my worries, only existing with her. Flesh-to-flesh.
She sighs happily and rouses beneath me. “Did I sleep in too late?”
“No. It’s our day off.”
Her fingers curl into my hair. “Is it? So, we can stay here all day?”
“No, baby.” I chuckle. “I’m taking you out. We’re going on a trip.”
She yawns and shakes her head, closing her eyes. “I told you… we don’t need to go to Spain.”
“That’s not where I’m taking you. It’s an hour train ride—you’ll love it.”
“Fine.” Her eyes flicker open, meeting mine with her adorable, sleepy gaze. “I trust you.”
“Good.” I press my lips together. “Speaking of trust… last night. We could have been safer. I’m so sorry.”
She shakes her head. “I’m on birth control, if that’s what you’re worried about.”
“That takes care of one worry.” The corner of my mouth ticks up. “I haven’t been sexually active since the last time I was tested. I’ll show you my results; I think they’re somewhere on my laptop.”
