Tonight she had sent us in fucking reverse.
Running after Charlotte, I had watched her get in the car with River. I stood on the pavement, my heart wrenching as she drove away.
Squatting, I placed one hand on the concrete and bowed my head, barely breathing with the pain like a hammer pulverizing my heart.
Ewan shoved a hand under my shoulder and pulled me to my feet. “Sutra je suncano,” Ewan told me.Tomorrow is sunny.
“Not when you’ve sunk to the deepest part of the ocean. Drowned. While the physical pain dies, love doesn’t. And it hurts every fucking time.”
“People are filming you.”
I couldn’t give two fucks.
He had led me to the car and then pushed me into the back seat.Had this always been her plan?Stay with River and give them a chance. If so, I had misconstrued her interest.
Fuck, I hadn’t seen it…
… because I had been an idiot.
For the rest of the evening, I stared at the black ceiling, not an inch of light shining through the drapes. I kept replaying her leaving with River over and over in my head.
Lying on my back, I was afraid to close my eyes and open the door for the dark thoughts to flow when I was barely holding them together.
I needed to find the sunshine before it was too late.
23
CHARLOTTE
We laughed and laughed,and I wish it wasn’t Sunday.
“I’ve had the best time,” I tell Zara and Penny, blotting happy tears from my eyes.
“You can’t leave yet,” Zara exclaims. “I have booked dinner for us in the restaurant. I can tell you our new chef is amazing. Just stay for the food.”
“I’ve barely been home all weekend, but hey, why work on a Sunday when I’d rather be with my crazy sisters-in-law?”
“We are crazy.” Zara winks at Penny. “For marrying brothers.” She snort-laughs. “Who knew that when we played games likehe’s a ten, butwe’d be referencing men who are genetically alike.”
“Eww. Please don’t have the penis comparison conversation while I’m here.”
Penny’s head falls back in laughter. “You mean,he’s a ten,but you inherit the sister.” Zara’s eyes widen with anoh fuckexpression.
“That’s the best thing to happen to you both,” I state.
“He’s a ten, but he’s your best friend’s brother-in-law.” Zara raises her wine glass to her lips. “With the hugest penis,” she says into her glass.
“That’s it. I’m done.”
“What about Byron?” Penny smirks.
“He’s a ten, but you wanna fuck his best friend.” Zara points at me. “Don’t lie, Little Miss Innocent.”
“Fucked,” I correct and roll my eyes. “A huge mistake, and don’t recommend.”
“Was it his penis?” Penny asks with innocence, the wine talking.
“His penis is fine, actually.” Ugh, they both grin. I walked straight into that one.
