I didn’t fuck up but throwing me off balance made it difficult.
You’re different than before, Primrose.
Am I not allowed to change?
Daemon and Finn are supposed to be the off-kilter ones.
I have three alters in my head. We’re all off-kilter, Dark.
Statements like that confused me because Killian made it seem like he was the first, the original but the fact that it had beenFinn Matthewsin that car accident when we were 18—memories I hadn’t had until recently—confused me. Darkand I had been left in our own little void, Killian and Finn sharing thoughts and memories unbeknownst to us. What Ididknow was that Killian wasn’t the softest of us three. He tried to hide but when the shock he tried to play into was adrenaline. We had been hard staring at that body and it had been Killian driving that emotion,notFinn.
Aeron was still massaging my foot beneath the water, catching a particularly large knot that had me moaning into his touch and sinking low in the bath water. Slash chuckled from behind me, a sound that vibrated through my body and made a beeline to my dick. The worst timing, really. “Want to tell us what happened, Daemon?”
“Not particularly,” I muttered because what did I know? Finn wanted to show everyone not to fuck with us but they didn’t know who we were. Our little city would just see a new killer finding his way. “Finn shuts us out pretty good. It’s like a room he built and he locks us in unless he wants us to see what he’s doing. We knew he was inviting her out but not why. He can keep his thoughts from us too. It’s strange.” Not knowing what he was thinking at any given time terrified me. Killian and Dark’s thoughts were always open to me—or at least the emotion riding them.
Not with Finn.
And most recently, not with Killian either.
Slash let out a heavy sigh as he rested his chin on my head. “Samael’s cleaning it up but whatever game Finn is playing, is dangerous. Who was the other girl, Daemon?”
I shot Aeron a small smile as I pulled my feet from his lap and pressed farther into Slash. The concerned gaze the cannibal was giving me hurt, the pity etched into his worry lines. I didn’t deserve that look, not for what we had just done. Dark and I knew that our psyche was slowly fracturing and falling apart. Nothing short of four white walls and a permanent psychiatrist would be able to save us.
That’s another mark for the board, Daemon.
Fuck you.
That’s not possible.
Also, would that be incest or just masturbation?
God, he was infuriating.
I thought back to Aeron’s question and searched for the memories but as I tried to pull one up from tonight, it disappeared. Just faded away into nothingness. Fear shot through me as I tried to remember the last few hours, everything turning black. The image of Nyla’s lifeless body was still very present in my mind but anything other than Finn being responsible for it disappeared. I remembered leaving work before Finn shoved us forward to see his creation.
Everything in between?Gone.
Where the fuck are my memories?
You don’t need those. They aren’t important.
I can’t… they’re gone for me too.
That’s unfortunate.
Killian and Finn had to be working together. Panic took over my calm demeanor as I shook in Slash’s arms, finally answering Aeron’s question. “I… can’t remember. The other girl. I just…” Finn shot me snippets of this evening, screams and the pleasure from our orgasms but nothing concrete. The sensations tore through me, my body reacting violently. I mentally shouted into my brain for Finn to stop torturing me, to leave me in the darkness.
By the time I finally settled, I wanted to pass out again.
Aeron scooted closer, his hand caressing the side of my face as Slash lowered his lips to my ear. “Kitten, breathe for us. There you go. Shit, you were convulsing for a second. I think we need a hospital. Not a mental one. We need brain scans or something.” Tears gathered in his eyes as he stared at me and I realized that my demise was hurting the men I loved most.
“Finn’s not just playing games with you. I don’t know what his plan is but it’s starting to hurt.” I knew the bastard was evil but I thought that maybe, justmaybewe would be spared his shenanigans. The other girl had to be Jade, although I couldn’t remember anything. If she was alive or dead, I had no fucking clue.
So, I sat in my mental darkness and screamed into the void. For the first time, I felt lost, unable to control our body eventhough I was the present alter. Maybe this was Finn’s plan all along.
To make us feel helpless and out of control.
When my lids slid close, Finn spoke again.
