“Why not?”
“I’m going to come, and we’ve barely started,” he chuckles.
“Well you do the same to me, so we’re both coming together.”
Our hands and breaths quicken, my eyes glued to the screen, watching his stomach tense as he gets closer.
“Come for me, baby.”
I spurt my release all over my hand and up onto my abs, and he groans as he does the same.
“Shit!” he pants, flipping the screen to show his face, his expression blissed out and happy. “That was fun.”
“Yeah it was,” I say. “Get cleaned up, baby, then go and sleep in my bed; I like the thought of you being in it when I’m not there.”
He smiles. “Okay, good night, Stephen.”
“Good night, baby.”
Donovan
I wake and the view is different than usual; when I realize I’m in Stephen’s bed I can’t help but smile. Nestling down into the covers a little more, I bury my face in his pillow and inhale deeply, I love being surrounded by his scent. Even though I was alone in the room, and I’ve gotten used to him being here, I had the best night’s sleep. Having his covers wrapped around my body like a hug was amazing, though I’d be lying if I said I didn’t wish it was him draped over me.
I knew it would be weird not seeing him this weekend, but I didn’t anticipate just how much I’d miss him. We’ve fallen into an easy routine this last week, and yes, I miss all the physical stuff we’ve been doing in the privacy of our dorm, but I miss the other stuff even more. Getting coffee, eating lunch together, watching movies on a laptop in bed… Granted, we don’t usually make it to the end, kissing him is too much fun. I just love spending time with him.
I’m also ready to take things further, feeling more confident every day. I’ve been trying to remind myself of what Beth says, she’s often talked to me about her own insecurities from when she first started having sex, not so much with inexperience, but with her size. Even though she feels beautiful and sexy, it’s hard to see that in yourself when the world is trying toconvince you of the opposite. Constantly selling you weight loss products, or stomach smoothing underwear, rather than letting people love their bodies as they are.
She told me her insecurity lessened when she thought about it logically. Realizing that if someone was at the point of having sex with her, then they knew what she looked like, and what to expect, so it was pointless worrying about it. They’d both have a better time if she let go and enjoyed herself, instead of focusing on how she looked.
And that’s what I need to do. I need to stop worrying about what Kyle said and stop focusing on my lack of experience; Stephen knows all of that, and he hasn’t been scared off yet. He’s in this, and I want to be too. Watching is a lot of fun, but I’m ready to touch.
The sound of the key in the lock has me jumping up from my bed, smoothing down my shirt and running my hand through my hair a few times.
“Mom, you can’t just walk in, it’s Donovan’s room too!” Stephen’s voice filters through the door and it makes me chuckle.
“Don’t be silly, Donovan knows me,” Vanessa says, pushing the door open and waving when she sees me.
“Hi,” I say, as she immediately comes and pulls me into a hug.
“Donovan, so nice to see you!”
“You too.”
“Donovan!” Nathan’s voice booms as he enters the room carrying some of Stephen’s gear.
“Hi,” I say, waiting for him to place the bags down before shaking his hand.
Stephen smiles at me from the doorway and subtly shakes his head in apology, but I don’t mind, his parents are like rays of sunshine.
“How was Tynerston?” I ask.
“Amazing,” Vanessa says, “we went to the aquarium and the wildlife center. Have you been?”
“Mom, he lives there,” Stephen sighs, “I’m sure he’s been.”
“I haven’t actually.” I grin at Vanessa, and she gives Stephen an ‘I told you so’ look as he rolls his eyes.
“Well you must go when you’re next home,” she says.
