Was he getting closer? I felt enclosed by him now. His scent surrounded me and it reminded me of citrus and cedar. I was feeling hot all over now, but I wouldn’t let him see what he was doing to me. I would not lose control.
“Yes, I mean…no. No, I don’t want that. Any of that. I can’t…”
“Of course, you can, Josiah. You and I can go and see all the things you want to see.”
I shook my head and made a valiant effort to get my control back in line.
“I’m not interested, but thank you for the offer.”
Sebastian’s big chest in front of me was so wide. I was wondering if it was full of dark chest hair. I wanted to uncross my arms and unbutton his shirt to find out. Maybe going to the sauna wouldn’t be the worst thing to happen. It could be fun. I was considering just giving in when he moved back away from me with his eyebrows frowning low over his eyes.
“Are you even out yet? Is that it? Even as a priest I wasn’t this much in denial about who I was.”
My head snapped back and I stared daggers into those gorgeous brown eyes. Too far. He’d gone too far now.
I didn’t even think about what I was doing, I braced one foot against the wall behind me and used it for leverage to push him as hard as I could. I must have surprised him with my strength since this time he moved completely away from me and even a step or two more back. I could breathe again, but to be honest, I’d only been half-assed pushing up until now because even as pissed as I’d been, he still felt nice that close to me.Don’t judge.It had been a minute since I’d been that close to a bear of a man like Sebastian.
“Of course, I’m out, you asshole. Just because you were too much of a heathen to make it as a priest, don’t think that you can judge me for the way I live my life. And to answer your question, no. No, I’m not going to be going to the sauna later. I’ve told you that’s not my thing. So, you run along and have fun.”
Sebastian laughed, but I felt the derision in it. The judgment was dripping from that rough chuckle. I’d never felt laughter sting before. “Of course, you’re not going. It’s New Year’s Eve, but you don’t stay out until midnight, do you? A handsome prude is still just a prude. Even if you’re whole body is as tight as a drum trying to stay in control, I’ll bet your dick is hard as a rock thinking about everything I just said.”
He was not wrong, but I was never telling him that.
“You were flushed and nearly panting thinking about all you could see and experience, but you’re so in denial you’ll drown before you would be caught dead in a place where sex and lust and non-judgment are the norms, wouldn’t you, Josiah?”
The twinkle in his eyes was dimmed now, and as he turned to leave me by the wall, I decided I couldn’t let this be it. I didn’t usually care what anyone thought about me, but with this man, I did. I cared that he was disappointed in me. I wanted to prove him wrong, even if he was spot on as of right now.
“Wait, okay, I’ll go. I’ll go, and I’ll show you you’re wrong about me. I’m no prude.”
By the start of the New Year, maybe that would be true.
Chapter 4
Sebastian
Holy fucking shit,he’d said yes!
He wouldn’t agree to go with me, but he’d said he would be there. I wanted to be ready when he did.
I went out to the parking lot and found Bruce and George standing on the sidewalk saying goodbye to the last of their guests.
“We’ll see y’all later, guys. Thanks for coming!” George giggled after he said that, then whispered, “They’ll all be coming a lot more later tonight.”
Bruce kissed his soon to be husband’s smiling mouth, then looked to me. “You ready to go have some big boy fun now, Sebastian?”
George piped up, “I saw you checking out Josiah, but he won’t be there, I’m afraid.”
“Oh, yeah he will. I just talked to him. He said he’d be there in about an hour.”
Both the guys looked shocked. “He said what? You must be mistaken. He’d never do that.”
“He just told me he’ll be there. I believe him. If anyone I’ve ever met needed to let loose it’s him. I don’t ever really know him, but I feel like I do. It doesn’t make sense, but I can tell what he wants and I want to give it to him.”
“Awww, Seb’s got a crush. Isn’t that cute?”
“Shut it, Bruce. I might love you like a brother, but I’ll still kick your ass.”
“Don’t be that way, Seb. I’m just teasing you. And you’re right about Josiah. Ever since his last relationship a couple years ago, he’s been a monk. Wouldn’t it be funny if the monk fell for the ex-priest?”
