In silence, she left the chamber and headed out into the gentle dusk.
*
More death andmore destruction.
At least, that was what Isobeau thought when she made her way down the steps that led into the inner ward. The big ward was badly damaged and dead men, men with arrows still in their bodies, were being piled up near the great hall. She could see at least a dozen or more, all being carefully lined up. She stood upon the steps for quite some time, watching the activity below, trying not to become ill at the sight of so much death, before shifting her attention to the stable off to her left.
The structure didn’t seem to be any more damaged than it had been the last time she saw it and she made her way over to it to check on her mare. The horse was still where she had left it, crowded into an undamaged stall with a pony and three goats. The horse was gnawing on the wooden slats of the stall so she gave it some of the dried grass that was piled up in another stall. The mare and the pony and the goats descended on the grass, hungry. Leaving her animal friends feasting, Isobeau wandered back out into the ward.
It was difficult to tell if there was still fighting going on at the gate because there were so many men grouped around it that she couldn’t really see what was happening. All she knew was that there were dozens of men, and knights on horseback, and she recognized Maxim de Russe and Alec le Bec. Alec even waved ather. She waved back even though her attention was focused on finding Atticus.
Men were moving about everywhere and she dodged groups of them as she made haste across the inner ward, heading for the great hall where she knew the wounded were. She tried not to think on the last time she was in the great hall, the day that Alrik du Reims was killed, but it seemed an easy enough thought to overcome when she wanted badly to see Atticus. She had to find him and she had to tell him… well, she wasn’t quite sure what, exactly, she was going to tell him, but if what Warenne had said was true, then perhaps it was time for her to be truthful with the man she had married. All she knew was that she had to see him. She was lingering by the entry to the great hall, straining to catch a glimpse of the men inside, when she heard a soft, deep voice behind her.
“Isobeau?”
Whirling around, she found herself facing Atticus. He was in plate armor, without his helm, and he appeared positively exhausted. A dark growth of beard spread over his face and his beautiful eyes were ringed with dark circles. But it was what she saw within those eyes that had her breath catching in her throat; there was something very deep and very emotional there. Whatever it was brought tears to her eyes. She was so glad to see him that she very nearly crumpled.
“I heard about Warenne,” she said, her throat tight with emotion. “I am so sorry, Atticus. I know he was your friend.”
Atticus’ gaze lingered on her. In fact, he couldn’t stop looking at her. He’d happened to notice her when she came out of the stables and even though he had been at the front gate, directing the disposal of the Northumberland dead, he left the knights in charge and followed his wife all the way across the inner ward until she came to a halt at the entry to the great hall. Now, all of those words he had planned to say to her, or wanted to say toher, seemed to catch in his throat. He’d never seen anything so beautiful in his life.
“He was a dear and valued friend,” he finally said. “I will miss him.”
“As will I.”
“What are you doing down here? It is quite a mess still.”
She took a step towards him, her lovely face upturned to him, illuminated by the torchlight that was casting a warm glow over the inner ward. “Tertius came to see me,” she said. “He said that Northumberland came to help us.”
Atticus nodded. He wanted so very badly to reach out and hold her but he knew it wouldn’t be well met. His arms fairly ached to touch her. “They did,” he said. “A Wellesbourne knight, who was traveling to Wolfe’s Lair to see me, came upon the siege and rode straight to Alnwick for help. Fortunate for us that he did or I have no idea what state we would be in now.”
Isobeau grew serious. “Was Wolfe’s Lair in danger of falling?”
Atticus nodded. “I believe so,” he said. “In fact, before Northumberland appeared, I was coming to see you to take you to safety.”
Isobeau’s face lit up. “You were coming to see me?”
He nodded, seeing that she appeared rather pleased by the thought. “Aye,” he said, wondering if he should say anything more. He was terrified to, terrified she would run off or, worse, reject him. Therefore, he restrained himself. “As I said, I was going to take you to safety.”
Isobeau’s face fell. “I see,” she said, lowering her gaze and looking to the destruction of the inner ward. “I am glad that Northumberland appeared, then. I understand that your father is well also. He survived.”
Atticus nodded, noting how depressed she seemed now whereas moments before, she seemed quite warm and receptive.“He is very well,” he said. “Now I cannot keep him out of the clean-up efforts. He thinks he is in charge.”
“Well, itishis fortress.”
Atticus gave her a lopsided smile. “Aye, it is,” he said, eyeing her. He cleared his throat softly and somewhat nervously. “You… you said that you came to find me?”
Isobeau looked at him;reallylooked at him. At that moment, she could do one of two things– she could simply tell him that she was pleased he was uninjured and leave it at that, or she could bare her soul and pray he didn’t run off in horror. Since Warenne had led her to believe that Atticus felt something for her, she took a chance on the latter. But speaking of her feelings for the man was the most difficult thing she’d ever had to do in her life.
“I did,” she said quietly. “I… I wanted to speak with you.”
“What about?”
She looked at him sadly, perhaps with some chagrin. “Shall we pretend that I did not say such terrible things to you the last time we saw one another?” she said softly. “I, for one, cannot do such a thing. I cannot ignore the terrible things I said to you and… and I wanted to ask for your forgiveness. I understand that you were trying to protect me, Atticus. You saw danger and you did what you could to save my life. I should not have been so horrid to you about it. I should have trusted you and I am sorry that I did not.”
At that moment, Atticus felt as if a massive weight had been lifted from his shoulders. He could breathe again. He smiled faintly at her, realizing that he felt more alive and joyful than he had in days, even weeks or months. Perhaps ever. Nothing he’d ever known equated with what he was feeling at her words.
“I am sorry, too,” he said. “I frightened you and I upset you. I did not mean to do either of those things, but when I saw the knight with his arm across your neck, I knew that it was eitherhis life or yours. Know that if I had it to do all over again, I would do the same thing. I could not let anything happen to you, Isobeau. It would destroy me.”
