Suddenly feeling nervous, I fidget a little in my seat. “I just wanted to say how happy I am we’re all able to have family dinner tonight. I also wanted to ask you all…if you would want to join me in the nest tonight.” I push a little of my own need down the bonds so they all understand my meaning. They’re all surprised by my invitation.
“Are you sure you’re ready?” Keelan asks, concerned.
“I am. I have some things that we should avoid as possible triggers that are different than my other limits. We can go over it after dinner. I want to be with all of you, my mates, together,” I say, resolve underscoring my words.
Once the guys clear the table and clean up, we all sit down in the living room to talk about the possible triggers I discussed with my therapist. When I had talked to her about this and realized I couldn’t handle some of these things, at least for now, I didn’t expect the immense sadness that would overtake me. It felt like a loss since some of these were things I’ve done with many of my mates when we’ve had sex. It was like he was taking another thing away from me.
I take a breath to center myself before I begin. “So, the limits we all went over before my heat are the same. The new ones for now are: hair pulling, choking/hands on my throat, and if you allcould verbally say when you’re approaching me from behind.” I stress the last item. It’s the one I’m most worried about. With so many of us, I know one or more of them will be behind me but after some back and forth with my therapist, we concluded if I’m warned ahead of time, it should mitigate the risk of triggering me.
“We can all do that, but please make sure to say how you’re feeling too. We’ll also check in with the bond just in case. We don’t have to rush anything tonight,” Ben says, speaking for the pack.
“Okay, agreed.” I stand up and move to leave and head up to the nest.
Keelan stands as well. “Baby Girl, can I carry you up?” He’s so cautious, especially since I got home from the hospital. I don’t want them to treat me like I’ll break at any moment. I nod in agreement and he sweeps me off my feet, literally, heading for the nest.
I got cleaned up and changed into some lingerie. Honestly, I haven’t worn anything like this for them yet. Outside of my heat whenever we’d have sex, it kind of just happened in the moment. But I wanted to feel sexy inside and out, and as silly as it sounds, wearing this feels a little like armor. Not that I need it with my mates, but more so to fight off any lingering anxiety. The deep red lace clings to my body, showing my breasts, large soft stomach, and its rolls, before disappearing between my thick thighs.
I open the door from the en suite to the nest and see all my mates there in nothing but their underwear. When they see me, I feel their lust flare in all the bonds. It definitely helps to boostmy confidence a bit, I won’t lie. I had a plan of how I wanted this to start, at least and then let things happen from there. Entering the dimly lit nest, I make my way to Keelan, who’s in the back right corner of the room. I wonder if he thought he’d go last like last time the entire pack was together during my heat.
As I approach him, he spreads his legs, enabling me to kneel as close to him as I can. Gods he so big everywhere, but he’ll always be a teddy bear to me. His hard cock is already testing the constraints of his underwear. Leaning forward, I kiss him softly, letting both of us ease into the moment. When we break apart, he caresses my cheek. “What do you want, Baby Girl?”
“You, right now,” I say instantly and move my hand to free his cock. It gets trapped anyways between us but I start to stroke him in earnest, making him let loose a little growl and groan into our kiss. His sounds are turning me on so much, I can feel my slick.
With my other hand on his chest, I give him a little push and he complies by lying down on his back. I take his underwear completely off and move to sit on him and run his cock through my wet pussy. Gotta love crotchless lingerie. His big hands grip me on either side of my hips. I’ll no doubt have light bruises from his fingers, and probably Eli’s as well. I don’t care as I relish the marks my mates leave on me.
Keelan helps me along by moving me faster as we grind on each other. I stop us before it goes too far, since I want him in me. All of them will be tonight. Reaching down, I grab ahold of him and lift myself up enough to slowly start sitting on him.
Keelan groans at the action, his head tilting back deeper into the pillows. “Fuck,” he draws out. “You need more prep before that.” His voice becomes a little clearer.
I shake my head no. “You’re mine, my scent match made for me, and I you,” I say, nearly repeating what he said that time we were together before my heat. His amber eyes soften at that.
Once he’s fully inside and I’m sitting flush against him, I take a minute. It was a stretch to get him in with no prep. Now for the next step. “Parker, in a moment I want you to get the lube and fuck my ass.” I turn my head to see him on the other side of the nest. He looks a little surprised by what I said. Based on the bonds, many of them seem to feel that way.
“Thea, that’s probably not a good idea with me also involved, it’ll be too tight, it could hurt,” Keelan says worriedly.
“Don’t worry, all of you. Please I prepared, it’s going to be fine. Trust me.” I try to send some of my conviction down the bonds. With that, I lean forward a little, bracing my hands on Keelan’s chest and begin to ride him in earnest.
Seeing this giant of a man fall apart beneath me is beautiful. I lean over more, my stomach squishing between us a little uncomfortably but that can’t be helped at my size, and kiss him hard. Keelan doesn’t miss a beat, returns my kiss and gripping my hips tightly as he starts fucking me harder from below. I break away from our kiss to breathe and see Parker approaching.
“I’m almost behind you, are you okay, Goddess?” Parker asks tentatively.
“Yes, thank you.” I lean over to him before he moves again and kiss him. When he gets behind me and holds my cheeks apart, I can’t help the smirk that spreads across my face when I hear his gasp.
“You had a plug in this whole time?” he asks, blinking in surprise.
“Yup. See, I told you it’s going to be fine. Just take it out and we’ll be good to go with some lube,” I tell him, trying to put him at ease. I had prepared before dinner and been wearing one since then. When I came up here and changed, I switched out the plugs and cleaned myself up again just in case.
Parker removes it slowly and after a minute, I feel him adding lube to both me and himself. Keelan has stopped as wewait for Parker. He enters slowly, and I get a little impatient and move back, taking the rest of him in me. I feel so full, even more so than during my heat. I hang my head against Keelan, letting my body acclimate.
“Good?” he asks, brushing away some loose hair that fell in front of my face.
“Good, please both of youmove,” I plead. Thankfully they do, thrusting in and out slowly while I remain still. It’s not long before I’m a moaning mess. Keelan had worked me up before.
“Knot me. I need you both to knot me, please alphas,” I whine, my body shaking between them.
“Goddess…” Parker trails off as his knot enters me, triggering his orgasm.
Keelan kisses me gently this time. “Baby Girl, you’re doing so well taking both of us. Come with us, right now,” Keelan growls out, slamming his knot inside and hitting the perfect spot. We come together. I swear it feels like after everything happened, the bonds somehow dimmed inside me, maybe because of how withdrawn I got, but now they’re lighting up again and staying bright. It’s such an indescribable feeling, different from when we first bonded.
