My eyes bugged. I hated to ruin the moment or call hima liar, but come on! Boys were different than girls. I loved sex, but my body hadbeen perfectly happy to go into asexual mode when I didn’t have the trust andsafety of a committed relationship. Frankie didn’t seem to have that problem,but I’d been with the same man since I was fifteen. I wasn’t exactly preparedto go out into the world and find my sexual freedom.
But Sayer was this gorgeous, healthy, virile male. Howcould he have possibly waited for me? Especially after I hurt him so deeply? Aftereverything I put him through, it seemed that at the very least, revenge sex wasin order.
“How?” I demanded of him. “How has there been no onesince me?”
His hand cupped my jaw, his thumb brushing over mycheekbone. With all the sincerity and raw, genuine truth, he held my gaze andsaid, “Because it felt like cheating. And I couldn’t. No matter how angry I wasor frustrated or lost… I couldn’t make myself be unfaithful to you. I had nodesire to be with anyone but you. So yeah, it’s been a long fucking five years.But it was worth it, yeah? Because now it can be you.” He slid his boxer briefsdown and pressed himself against me. His mischievous smile came back and heleaned over me, forcing me to lie back on my elbows. “Also, prison helped.”
I couldn’t help but laugh, knowing he was stilltelling the truth.
I wrapped my legs around his back and trembled at theintensity of the pleasure. “Then we have a lot of time to make up for,” Iwhispered, turned on all over again by this incredible man that had remained faithfulto me after all this time.
He slid into me without another second’s hesitationand I gasped for breath at the full feeling. “Oh, my God,” I moaned, trying towrap my head around his size and hardness and heat.“Oh, God,Sayer.”
“Worth it,” he murmured against my breast.“So fucking worth the wait.”He shivered again, and stilledlike he had to acclimate to the sensation. I was thankful for the second to getused to him as well. I needed to process this, us, that we were doing thisagain after so much time, after I’d run from him and after he’d chased me untilhe found me. In my racing thoughts, I was still flipping through his lettersand trying to reconcile his presence in my town and in this office and insideof me.
But then he started to move and I forgot everything Iwas trying to work through. I pretty much forgot the entire English language.We ceased speaking and flirting and treating each other gently in favor oftreating each other much rougher—but in the good way.
My heels dug into his back as he drove me closer andcloser to that blissful edge all over again. I threw my arms around his neck,lifting my body up for an incredible new angle. He made a delicious sound inthe back of his throat and I moaned something I didn’t even understand. Itsounded like more, and he did not hesitate to deliver.
He pulled back, taking in my face, and the way Igasped for breath. My fingers dug into his shoulder blades as I held onto him,letting him take as much as he wanted from me.As much as heneeded.
“So fucking beautiful,” he murmured. “You’re mine,Caroline. You always have been.” He pressed in deeper, making spots dance in myvision. “You always will be.”
“Yes,” I agreed, my voice nothing more than a pant.“Always. I will always be yours.”
His hands dug under my ass, lifting me to a betterposition for him. I let out a loud cry of pleasure as he went deeper and deeperuntil I couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore.
“I love you,” he murmured against my cheek. “I willalways love you.”
I barely found the sanity to respond, but my wordswere still truth, my lies were dead and buried. “I love you too,” I told him,feeling it to my bones, to my soul, to the very ends of me.
We came together in an explosion of fireworks andpassion, our bodies slick with sweat and sex. He didn’t leave me. Instead, hecontinued to press into me, wrapping his arms around me in the tightest hug. Heburied his face in the crook of my neck, pressing gentle kisses there.
He stayed like that for a long time and I soaked upevery second of it. My arms firmly around his neck, my cheek resting againstthe top of his head, my legs still languidly wrapped around him. It was heaven.It was healing. It was everything I had been missing since the day I left him.
“Gus is going to kill us,” he murmured against myskin.
I looked down and laughed. We were definitely on Gus’sdesk. Sayer’s sat untouched across the room, littered with the letters that hadchanged everything.
“He just might.” Realizing that in order for Gus to bepissed off, he’d have to know that we had sex on his desk, I blushed fiercely.“Oh, God,” I groaned. “Let’s not give him all the dirty details. Maybe youcould just tell him there was a problem with his desk. Like a chemical spill orsomething.”
His laugh shook his chest, prompting him to hold metighter against him. I savored the moment, relishing every second of his skinagainst mine. I had always loved this feeling. The raw heat of him. The feel ofhis hard muscle beneath soft skin. His chest against mine, his heart beating intandem with mine.
“I don’t know that Gus would believe a chemical spillruined his desk.”
“He should,” I said practically. “Depending on thechemical, they can be very dangerous.”
He laughed again and we had another few minutes ofperfect peace, tangled together. But something shifted in him, quieted. I wassuddenly afraid of what was next.
He pulled back and I was startled by the serious lookin his eyes, especially since I mostly felt like a limp noodle with zerostrength to stand up or stay awake or even sit here by myself without hissupport. He’d taken everything out of me in the very best way.
Apparently, I’d done the opposite to him and infusedhim with energy. The intensity inside him was practically vibrating his wholebody.
His voice pitched low, gravelly and sincere. “I don’texpect us to just pick up where we left off, Six. But we’re together now, yeah?That was you finally admitting this is real between us, that we belongtogether… that we still love each other.”
“Y-you want to be together?”
His expression darkened. “In my head, we never parted.You know, since you didn’t have the guts to break up with me.”
