I’m not yet sure if it’s love like Kelsier suggested a while back, but it’s a whole lot more than just lust.
“Not just lust,” I say, and he nods slowly.
“You’ll have to tell the team and Kaladin eventually,” he says.
“I know,” I say, “but not yet.”
“Why not?”
I give him the reasons about not being able to work with her and possibly having Kaladin pull her funding.
He waggles his head in a ‘Yeah, that’s possible’ way.
“So what are you going to do?” he asks.
I pull out my phone again. The flight attendants are going through their preflight spiel, and I realize I never responded to Gray’s last text. I suspect she has abandonment issues, and I don’t want to leave her hanging, so I quickly text back.
Ash
Getting ready to take off. Gotta shut down now. Miss you already. Will text when I land.
The dots bounce almost immediately, and I suspect I was right, that she was freaking out after not hearing back after that last intimate text.
Gray
Miss you too. Safe flight.
I shut down my phone and turn back to Kelsier. “For now, I’m just going to stay under the radar as much as possible. Hopefully everyone will just think we’re great actors.”
Kelsier huffs a laugh. “Don’t bet on it. Fig is already on to you. He told half the team he caught you and Gray in the equipment room. He didn’t see anything, but he could guess what you were doing in there.”
I grimace. “Fuck.”
Kelsier cocks his head again. “Whatwereyou doing in there?”
I sigh. “I finger fucked her. It’s where I learned about her praise kink.”
Kelsier nearly chokes. “You finger fucked the doc in the equipment room?” he hisses under his breath.
I nod.
“And you didn’t tell me?” he asks indignantly.
It’s my turn to laugh. “We were in there because of you.”
“What?”
“I saw her talking to you before practice that day she had you chirp at me, and I got jealous,” I explain. “I told her I was going to prove to her who she belonged to.”
He stares at me before he cracks a grin. “You possessive asshole.”
I shrug just before the plane begins to taxi.
“You guys do any roleplaying last night?” Kelsier asks.
I frown at him. Kelsier and I have never gotten into the details of each other’s sex lives, so I’m not sure what makes him suspect I’m into roleplaying.
“Like what?” I ask.
