“Hey Rain Cloud.” I mumble, crouching down to place the bouquet of flowers on the grass in front of her gravestone. “Howhave you been? I hope wherever you are, they’re treating you good. A lot has happened since the last time I’ve come to visit."
Running my fingers along the photo engraved on the stone, my heart clenches at her beautiful smile. She always managed to light up a room with it.
“I’m conflicted and I don’t know what to think anymore. I used to pray I’d get the chance to turn back time, to save you. But if I did, I wouldn’t be where I am right now. I wouldn’t have the life that I'm living. You were taken from me far too soon. And I’ll hate myself every day for being the reason you're gone.” My chest hurts as I think about the look in her eyes as she took her last breath.
Squeezing my eyes shut, I take in a shuddering breath. “I have an Omega now. Two actually.” I huff out a laugh. “Can you believe that? Me, with two scent matched Omegas.” I shake my head. “They drive me crazy, you know, but I think you’d like them. Nova is a spitfire, she loves to pick at me and get me going. I love it too. We fight like we hate one another, but fuck, Reina, I love that girl so much that it’s hard to breath sometimes.”
I take a seat on the ground and pick at the grass in front of me. “Then there’s Tucker, the one I never expected. He’s perfect for Nova. Sweet, kind, and loving, and despite what I thought when I first met him, he’s insanely loyal. I’m just struggling, I guess. Before him, I’ve never thought of a man sexually. Now, any time he’s in the room, all I want to do is...” I laugh. “I won’t go into details, but I’m sure you can guess.”
I look up at the sky, a few crows flying around. “So many changes in a small amount of time. I’ve spent years with a plan to leave this town, and everything in it, behind. To start over new, fresh, where no one knows us, but things changed. Now I’m living the life I swore I’d never live. I’m not only back with the Steel Devils, I’m the president.” I laugh, shaking my head.
My gaze drops back down to the photo of her. “But, I have good news. The bastard is dead. His body is six feet in the ground where it belongs, while his soul burns in hell. I hope the devil has taken a special liking to him, giving him extra attention.”
I sit there for a while, just staring at her photo.
“I miss you Rain Cloud. I’m not sure if you can hear me, but I want you to know that I’m sorry. You can hate me, but if you don’t, I hate myself enough for the both of us.” I let out a heavy sigh. The sound of thunder has me looking up. “I should get going. Looks like we’re going to get a bit of rain. I brought you some flowers, I hope you like them.” I get to my feet, dusting off my jeans. “Anyway.” I clear my throat. “I’ll see you again next year.”
I turn away feeling a little bit better than I was earlier. I keep telling myself that I shouldn’t feel guilty for moving on.
Reina was someone I was with when I was a teenager; she’s been gone for years now. I don’t think I’m feeling the guilt of finding someone else, it’s the fact that I’m the reason she died in the first place.
She wouldn’t want me to hate myself like that. She was so damn sweet and loving. If she could talk to me, she’d tell me to move on, to be happy.
I know that's what I should be doing, and maybe it’s time I stop letting my past hold me back and embrace my fate. With both Nova and Tucker.
Whether I like it or not, I’m obsessed with that man now, almost as much as I’m obsessed with Nova.
As I head towards the parking lot, I stop and squint. “You have got to be fucking kidding me.” I groan.
Standing there are my two Omegas looking like deers caught in headlights.
“You two are in so much shit!” I shout and they both look at each other in fear.
Good. They better be afraid.
Nosy little shits.
Chapter 29
Nick
The two of them stand there, looking guilty as hell.
“Wanna tell me why your both here?” I ask.
They look at one another with wide eyes. “Would you believe we took a wrong turn?” Nova asks.
“Seeing how the cemetery isn’t anywhere near downtown or the compound, no.” I deadpan. “Try again.”
“We didn’t follow you... at first.” Nova sighs. “We really were downtown getting some ice cream, but then we saw you going into the flower shop and we got nosey.”
“When we overheard you saying the flowers you bought weren’t for either of us, we got a little worried.” Tucker rubs the back of his neck.
“And what? You thought the flowers were for someone else?” I bark out a laugh. “You think I’d cheat on you?” I ask Nova. “After everything you've been through?”
“No!” She rushes to say. “Okay, maybe. Not really, but I had to know who the flowers were for. It wasn’t until we got here that I remembered Reina and called Ian to ask if today was... well you know.”
I do know. I wish I didn’t have to be here, but that's my reality. “I’m an asshole, and I’m not perfect, but the last thing I’d ever do is cheat on my Omegas.”
