His eyes go wider and wider the more my words sink in.
I hate when he trembles instead of being happy, but I understand him trying to refuse my feelings, especially now.
He opens his mouth and I’m expecting him to reject me. “I love you too.”
I hug him close, happy and scared for the future. I kiss him because I need him as I need the air I breathe. Between kisses I whisper to him what I hope will be true. “We’ll be fine, trust me.”
I pull him close until his head is resting on my chest, while I kiss his hair. We don’t talk, and I don’t mind, because being this close is all I need.
When Jay’s breath becomes heavier, I stand with him in my arms, then move in the direction of my room. I need him close, and he needs to rest.
When we’re close to the bed I lay him there and follow him down, spooning him and pulling him against my chest.
I don’t think about the difficult days ahead of us, but only about the man in my arms, who loves me as much as I love him.
“I love you, Angel,” I whisper against his hair before I let sleep take me.
CHAPTER 22
Jay
We moved from deep despair to pure happiness while we waited for Kai’s big plan to take form.
On the day everything went down and I was so close to leaving that the door was biting my arse, and Haden told me that Kai was going to help, I thought he was part of the mafia… but then his silly faces, gentle manners, and being an amazing doctor doesn’t really scream bad boy.
The most amazing moment was when Haden said those three heart-stopping words.
I love you.
My heart still trembles every time I think about it.
Shame fills me when I think that I was going to reject him. Reject everything I ever wanted, even when I was convinced I didn’t deserve it. But then my mouth had run away from me, revealing the truth when I wanted to hide it because I wanted to protect those I consider my family.
Haden hadn’t allowed me to walk away like I did before. He kept me there, giving me the confidence to fight for us, even if everything was against us. He made me believe we could win if we stuck together, and here we are… each one of us fighting his own battle so that we can be reunited forever.
If we win, I’m never letting him go. Never letting them go.
I pull my phone from my pocket and open the messages section.
Jay
I’m never letting you go, babe.
Haden
I never want to be apart from you.
Jay
Keep calm and let them hang themselves.
Haden
Be careful and come back to me.
Jay
Always. Love you.
