“Oh, god.” When the sensation of him rubbing relentlessly over my G-spot with every stroke became too much, I threw my head back and clenched my eyes shut. I hadn’t known there was such a thing astoo good.
“Look at me,” Raylan grunted, each word punctuated by the snap of his hips. “You wanna come, Chaos, you keep those gorgeous greens on me.”
I managed to peel my eyes open to half mast, and when I looked back at him, what I saw staring intensely at me charged the air between us and made my walls pulse and squeeze tight around him.
“Ah, fuck me,” Raylan gritted between clenched teeth. “That’s it, baby. Squeeze my cock with that perfect pussy. Fuckin’ choke me.”
My orgasm hit a moment later, slamming into me like a wrecking ball and I couldn’t keep from yelling out his name over and over as it kept going and going. I didn’t know how long my release lasted, but I finally managed to jumpstart my brain right as Raylan’s speed picked up and his cock swelled inside me.
“Fuck, fuck,fuck!” Raylan shouted. “Jesus Christ, you’re milking my cock. Too goddamn tight. I’m gonna come.”
I fisted his messy hair in one hand and tugged it just as hard as I knew he liked it. “Do it. Give it to me, Raylan.”
His eyes were hazy as he stared at me hungrily. “You want it, Chaos? Want me to fill you up?”
The pressure in my core had returned and was building at a fever pitch. “Yes,” I managed to get out on a whimper. “Please, Raylan.”
He came with a sound I’d never heard before, and that was all it took to send me over the edge again. We came together until there was absolutely nothing left. I went boneless in his arms, dropping my forehead to his shoulder, our bodies still locked together in an embrace so tight nothing could get between us.
We remained like that for a couple minutes, basking in the aftermath of world-class sex, when a fresh wave of panic came over me.
I did my best to keep my muscles from locking up so he wouldn’t know I was freaking out all of a sudden. But I couldn’t help it.
It had been less than twenty-four hours, but I already knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that if I lost him again, it would break me.
Chapter Twenty-Four
Raylan
Iwas seriously dragging. Even the coffee the boys in the bunkhouse made wasn’t enough to wake my ass up, and that shit was barely one step up from road tar. But despite the fact I could have fallen asleep standing up, I couldn’t bring myself to care. The reason behind my exhaustion was totally worth it.
I would have gladly gone without sleep for days if it meant getting to spend as much time as possible with Lennix. The past two weeks had been some of the best days of my life. I got back the pieces of her I’d lost while we were fighting; her sassy mouth and that attitude that made Lennix who she was, but I’d also gotten so much more. And I wasn’t talking about sex.
Well, notonlyabout sex.
I’d always enjoyed spending time with her, but it was different now. Now I got to hold her. I got to bury my nose in her hair and pull in that fragrance that had tortured me foryears. I got to touch her silky skin and kiss those plump lips. I got to do all the things I’d wanted to do since I stopped seeing her as herbrother’s little sister, and instead, saw her as the gorgeous, full-of-life woman she really was.
I’d always known she was funny and clever. She was sweet when she wanted to be, but wouldn’t hesitate to throw down for someone she loved... or an animal in need. But now I got to experience sides of her I hadn’t known existed. I learned that she could be shy at times, that she could be nervous when it came to some of the things we did in the bedroom—or the barn, or the kitchen, or the shower... you get the picture—because of her lack of experience, but she never let it hold her back. She was always so determined to push through and excel at everything she tried, and the end results were out of this goddamn world.
She also didn’t seem to mind that we had to keep everything behind closed doors. Though, I had to admit, the sneaking around made it even hotter.
I hadn’t spent a single night in my own bed since we started up together. To be honest, I was surprised I hadn’t been eager for my own space, at least from time to time, but the thought of crawling beneath my own sheets—that were garbage compared to Lennix’s far superior bamboo sheets—without her soft, sweet body to wrap around left a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.
My apartment, that had once been my sanctuary, now felt as cold and unappealing as most people would consider it to be. I’d never had a desire to shack up with a woman. The few I’d seen more than once had always known the score. They had their place and I had mine, and never the two shall meet. There were no sleepovers or snuggle sessions. But Lennix wasn’t like any of them. Hell, I was convinced there wasn’t a woman on the planet like my Chaos.
The need for space didn’t exist where she was concerned. In fact, I didn’twantto be away from her. I couldn’t get enough of the woman who loved to challenge me and push my buttons as much as I loved pushing hers. And that made pretendingnothing was going on between us when other people were around a little tricky.
The other obstacle we had to overcome was her work hours. Running a bar and brewery wasn’t exactly a nine to five kind of job. There were more than a handful of late nights, making Lennix’s insanely early mornings even worse. Now that tourist season was slowing down at the lodge, I didn’t have many early morning sunrise hikes, so, as often as I could, I cancelled her alarm while she was still asleep and took care of her animals for her so she could get a few extra hours.
Sure, the reason for doing so wasn’t completely selfless. I got to crawl back in bed with her when I was done, but mostly, I wanted to take care of her when I could, which meant making sure she got enough sleep.
Taking care of her also meant that The Tap Room now had a brand new, top of the line security system. Of course, she gave me shit about it the entire time it was being installed, but I was able to quiet her down by locking us both in her office and eating her out until she came all over my face after the bar had closed for the night, then fucking her until both of us came so hard we were panting and gasping for air for a full five minutes.
“Yo, earth to Raylan.”
The voice pulled me out of my daydream and back to the present. I blinked away the memory of Lennix curled up in her bedsheets this morning and the adorable tiny, chuffing snores she made when she was sleeping hard until the stream came back into clear view.
I turned to look at Toby, standing beside me on the bank. “Huh?”
