“Never, baby. I’ll never stop.”
That tingle started at the base of my spine and my balls tightened. The need to come was so strong, I wasn’t sure how much longer I could hold out. Everything about this woman tempted me. pushed me to my breaking point. I had no self-control where she was concerned, and I didn’t mind one goddamn bit.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck...” Each curse was punctuated by another slam of my hips. “I can’t... I can’t hold on.”
“Oh, god, I’m coming!” She exploded on a shout, her pussy squeezing the life out of me as she clawed at my back. Some primitive part deep inside of me hoped she drew blood, marked me in some way as hers.
Her cunt got so tight there was no stopping it. I came with her, my balls emptying inside her.
One night. That was all it took. One night, and I was ruined for any other woman.
Chapter Twenty-Two
Lennix
Pulling my cardigan tighter around me, I huddled into its familiar warmth as I cupped my coffee mug between my hands and braced my forearms on the top of Corona’s stall door. She was happily munching on her oats, without a care in the world, while my mind was spinning out of control, leaving me dizzy.
When I woke up this morning, I almost thought I’d dreamed the whole thing. I mean, the sex had been out of this freaking world. I hadn’t known it could be that good, so it couldn’t have possibly been real.Right?There was a brief moment right when my eyes flipped open, that I thought I was alone. Then a chuffing snore from the other side of the bed swept away the last of the remaining sleep that had addled my brain and spun me right back into reality, memories of the night before coming back in technicolor.
Raylan was still there, in my bed, sleeping so peacefully I couldn’t help but take him in. Criminally long lashes dusted his cheeks, and the lines usually carved between his brows weresmoothed out, making him appear younger. He was relaxed in a way I’d never witnessed before, and seeing him like that caused something to catch behind my ribs and tug hard. With his guard down in sleep, he looked almost... innocent. Which was something hedefinitelyhadn’t been the night before.
On that thought, a wicked flush heated my skin. My hand slid forward to brush his golden wheat hair back from his forehead so I had an unobstructed view, but before my fingers could connect, I paused. As incredible as the night before had been, my head started spinning with a million questions I wasn’t sure I wanted the answers to.
Two words started banging around the inside of my skull like a drum beat.What. Now? What. Now? What? Now?
The light coming through slats in the blinds was a dull, muted gray, indicating the sun had barely begun its ascent. It was still ridiculously early, but I knew there wasn’t a chance I was getting back to sleep, so instead of tossing and turning while I second-guessed every single moment of our time together, I decided to get an early start on my morning chores.
The tasks were second nature by now, so it was kind of nice to lose myself in the minutiae of it all. My animals never failed to settle my nerves in a way nothing else ever could. Unfortunately, by the time I was done and watching Corona in all her peaceful glory, my head was still all over the place. Instead of trying to quiet the voices, I let them play, hoping that if I listened, I might come up with some kind of clarity.
Before that could happen, though, the sound of bootsteps on the dusty concrete floor sounded, and I knew, without having to look, who it was. I couldn’t bring myself to face him just yet, so I kept staring at my horse, but I would have been lying if I said my heart didn’t skip a couple beats as he got closer.
Corona’s ears twitched at the sound of a newcomer, but she kept munching like she didn’t have a care in the world.
“Hey.”
I hoped the bagginess of the cardigan hid the little tremble my body gave at the rich husk of Raylan’s morning voice.God! What was it about a man’s voice, rough with sleep, that was such amajorturn on?
“Hey,” I returned, still focused intently on Corona, mainly because I was struggling to find the courage to meet his gaze now that he’d seen me so exposed... literally. Without the high of sex clouding everything, I was feeling all kinds of nervous.
He came up beside me, taking up the same position as me. The lingering scent of his cologne mixing with the smells of the barn and becoming my new favorite scent. “You’re up early.”
I hummed noncommittally as I brought the mug to my lips and sipped my coffee. “Yeah. Downside of having so many animals.” It wasn’t a complete lie. I did wake up early most days because my pets could be assholes, but they weren’t why I was pulled from bed before the sun came up. From my periphery, I saw Raylan’s mouth hinge open on a jaw-cracking yawn. “I hope they didn’t wake you up.” Pirate wouldn’t have been an issue, seeing as he wasn’t really fond of people in general, but especially men. But poor, derpy Ziggy loved everyone and wanted them to love him back.
“Nah. But I might still be a little out of it. I think I hallucinated a cow in your living room when I came to find you.”
Damn it. “You didn’t imagine it,” I said with a put-upon sigh. “That’s Daisy. She’s... a bit eccentric. Thinks she’s a house cow.”
“Lennix.”
“Yeah?”
There was a pause, and from the corner of my eye, I watched him turn to me. “Chaos.”
“I’m right here, Raylan.”
“Maybe.” I could hear the smile in his voice, even without looking. “But you’ve been doin’ everything in your power to avoid lookin’ at me since I walked in here.”
I should have known he would call me out on my weird behavior, it was how we used to be, back when we were friends. Before everything got so messed up. Heaving out a dramatic sigh, I twisted my head in his direction. And immediately regretted it.
