Prologue
2006
Gwendolyn
“I don’t understand.”
I wished I did. More than anything, I wished I understood what the girl in front of me was saying.
“Your parents left you because you’re a freak. They didn’t want you,” sneered Mindy, a girl from my gym class. Was she angry with me? I always had a hard time trying to decipher people’s emotions.
“They are my parents, of course they wanted me. Otherwise they wouldn’t have had me.”
It was the truth; if you didn’t want children then the logical answer would be not to have them.
“Oh, they wanted kids all right. My momma told me how much they dreamed of the perfect family, but instead they got you. Freak of nature. They didn’t want a kid as fucked up as you. They left you in that big, empty house to start a new family.” Her words seemed cruel, but she was smiling while saying them.
“Okay,” I murmured. It didn’t seem like the real reason my parents were gone. I didn’t know why they left, but the words Mindy was spewing didn’t seem logical, so I couldn’t see why someone would do something like that.
My mind was having a hard time being surrounded by all these girls. I didn’t know how I was supposed to act. Them being around me was making my skin itch, and my body tensed from being so uncomfortable. All I wanted to do was get away from their group and wrap my arms around my sweater.
The bell rang, signaling class was over, and my senses went wild. The anxiety from the confrontation and the noise jarred me.
I tried my breathing techniques to calm my mind, but they were useless. I felt a meltdown coming and knew that the girls would just use my breakdown as more ammunition. I didn’t want to give them anything else for their arsenal, so I ran.
Pushing past the girls, not caring if they fell from the force, I ran out the doors to the parking lot.
Barely to the woods, I crumbled.
My hands gripped my white hair hard, trying to pull out the strands, as if it would ease the pain in my mind. I screamed loudly, letting all the frustrations of what I wasn’t capable of understanding out, but I still couldn’t pull myself together. My body was in the driver’s seat of this meltdown, and my mind was just along for the ride.
I thrashed and screamed, hoping no one came out to watch me.
I had a hard-enough time at school as it was.
My hopes had been dashed when the school counselor saw me and came running over.
“Gwendolyn. Breathe. Focus on the feel of water between your fingers, the coolness of metal against your touch.”
She was trying to get to me, and I wanted to focus. Truly I did, but I was too far gone.
“Oh God.” Her voice was strange, and I opened my eyes, not understanding the reason for her tone.
A blue car near us was melting, and the white SUV next to that was being squished as if something was pressing down on it.
“Gwendolyn, honey. I need you to tell me something before you go into shutdown. Did your parents lie about your age? Are you sixteen?” She gripped my shoulders, and I pushed her away harshly. I didn’t mean to, but I didn’t want her to get hurt.
“Gwendolyn, answer me.” She wasn’t shouting, so I just couldn’t tell whether she was angry or not. She definitely didn’t look happy. Why was she wanting to know how old I was? My parents wanted me to be with the elite kids at school, so they told everyone I was fifteen. So I’d fit in.
“Today’s my birthday,” I whispered and felt the final stage of my meltdown taking over. I’d shut down and pass out.
But just before I closed my eyes, I saw every car in the parking lot crumble like a ball of aluminum.
Being on the spectrum, diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome, sucked. But being a girl who could manipulate metal sucked even more.
Mindy was right; I was a freak.
Chapter One
