Help.
That word stuck in my craw like a bone I couldn’t swallow.
Those books weren’t charity.They weren’t trinkets to be auctioned off with pies and quilts.They were my company.My ghosts.My memories written in someone else’s ink because mine had already bled dry.I knew every torn spine, every dog-eared page.Some of those volumes smelled like sand and cordite, because they’d followed me overseas.Some smelled like mildew and wood smoke, because they’d lived through winters in this drafty house right alongside me.
The thought of some bright-eyed volunteer marching in here, pawing through them like they were boxes of old junk for Goodwill—well, it made my fists clench tight enough my knuckles ached.
My first instinct was simple: refuse.Board up the door, ignore the council, let the rumors spin themselves silly.I hadn’t asked for anyone to set foot in this house.I hadn’t asked for pity, or help, or whatever they wanted to dress it up as.The library was mine.My last bastion.My one goddamn sanctuary.
But then I remembered.I’d given my word.
The council had been circling me for years, like vultures.Pressure about the taxes, the property, my silence.They wanted me out of the way, boxed up neat like one of their decorated floats at the Christmas parade.I wasn’t about to give them the satisfaction.So, last year, when the talk turned to fundraising, I’d made a bargain.They could have the library when the time came.The whole damn thing.That was the price of my solitude—the one condition that bought me a little peace.
So what right did I have to balk now?None.Not if I wanted to keep the town off my back.
Still, anger simmered under my skin, sour and thick.Whoever they were sending—some sunny volunteer with wide eyes and no sense of caution—they didn’t know what they were walking into.They didn’t know what those books meant, or what kind of man lived among them.Scarred.Bitter.Dangerous.That’s what folks called me, wasn’t it?Maybe they were right.Maybe I wanted them to be right.
I dragged a hand over my jaw, the rasp of my stubble the only sound in the quiet house.Fine.Let them come.Let them try.The books weren’t easy to face, and neither was I.If this stranger thought they were just cataloguing a collection, they were in for a surprise.
Because those volumes weren’t just paper and ink.They were the only proof I had left that I’d lived.And I wasn’t about to let anyone treat them like scrap at a church auction.
Not without a fight.
The house was quiet.Too damn quiet, most days.I’d grown used to it, though—silence had a way of becoming its own kind of company if you let it hang around long enough.
The place wasn’t much to look at.Four walls, a roof that leaked in spring, windows drafty enough to rattle when the wind howled.Functional, sure, but cold.The walls were bare—no pictures, no memories framed up nice and neat like other folks had.Just peeling paint and shadows that stretched long in the evenings.The furniture was older than I cared to admit, all secondhand once, now worn down to bone.The couch sagged in the middle.The table still had knife scars etched into it from years back, grooves that caught dust no matter how many times I wiped them.And the floor… the floor bore its own history, scratches from boots I hadn’t had the heart to polish, gouges from when my temper used to get the better of me.Every mark in that wood was mine.Proof of a life lived mostly alone.
My days all ran together.I’d rise before the sun, put on a pot of black coffee so strong it could peel paint.Drink it slow while the house groaned around me.Then I’d settle into my chair by the fire, the one piece of furniture that hadn’t given out yet, and read under the dim circle of a single lamp.Sometimes I stared at the flames, but the heat never seemed to touch me.It was just light flickering in the dark.
That was the rhythm.Coffee.Books.Silence.No laughter, no music, no voices but the ones in my head and the ones trapped in paper and ink.
Most folks couldn’t stand it.
But me?
I figured it was better this way.People left scars deeper than any knife or bullet ever could.The house was scarred enough already.
Holly Ridge had a way of chewing people up with whispers.Always had.The town was small enough that secrets didn’t stay buried long—except mine.Mine didn’t need to be dug up, because everyone thought they already knew the story.
They called me the crazy vet.The dangerous recluse.The burned-up monster who lived at the edge of the pines.I’d heard the words in the grocery store once, back when I still bothered to go.A kid tugging on his mama’s sleeve, asking if I was the boogeyman.Her answer was a hissed warning not to stare.That was the last time I bought my own bread.
Truth was, people would rather build a legend than look a man in the eyes.Easier to paint me as half-mad, sitting out here in my crumbling house, than to think maybe I was just trying to survive the days same as them.And maybe they weren’t wrong.War left marks you couldn’t scrub clean, no matter how many showers you take or how many bottles you empty.
But I’ll tell you something—there was freedom in their fear.The stories kept them away.Neighbors crossed the street when I came to town.Teenagers dared each other to creep up my drive but never made it to the porch.I leaned into it.Let the scars, the limp, the silence do the talking.If folks wanted a monster, fine.A monster was easy to leave alone.
Better that than pity.Pity was worse than fear.
So I let the town keep their ghost stories.I kept to my books and my fire, and they kept to their gossip.That was the deal.Clean, simple, quiet.
At least until the council decided to break it—sending someone straight to my door.
It was two days later when I realized who it was.
Belle Foreman.
It was like the air got sucked out of the room, leaving nothing but the thud of my heartbeat and the hiss of the fire.Belle.Not just any volunteer.Not some stranger with bright eyes and good intentions.Her.
Memories hit me all at once, jagged and sharp.Her father’s face under a blistering sun, sand clinging to sweat, the weight of promises made and broken.The sound of his laugh before it turned to silence.The moment everything in me cracked open and never quite healed.
