“I need to see her,” I say, looking at the house, specifically Hope’s window. It’s closed.
“She’s okay,” the woman replies with no hint of a lie. “I saw her with my own eyes.She is okay. You better go home.”
“But I need to see her for myself.”
She gives me a sharp look. “Now is not the time and day. Go home before you create any more troubles for her. She’s already had enough.”
The command in her voice makes me turn around and walk back to the car. Her gaze follows me all the way.
I climb in the back and sounds fill the inside.
“Why didn’t you go in?”
“Who was that old woman?”
“Do you know her?”
“What were you guys talking about?”
I close my eyes and lean my head back granting myself a moment to take everything in.
She said she’s okay.
She better be or I don’t know what I’ll do.
On the way to my house, I tell Marie and Sebastian everything and the three of us decide that seeing Hope in school is the safest way. Because none of us wants to cause Hope trouble.
Despite this, my heart and body ache to see her and hold her in my arms. I want her near me so I can calm the chaos whirring in me because having her away from me is unbearable. I want to spend all my time with her and get to know that she isn’t astranger to me, but a person that I’ve known since I was a kid. And God, I want to kiss her.Fuck. I want to kiss her until I can’t anymore. My lips turn numb and my heart plummets to the ground with beating so fast.
She’s all I want.
She’s all I need.
Monday is so far away when I have such huge feelings for her. But I’ll wait for her.
6
HOPE
It takeshours for my phone to charge enough to turn on. I know it’s time to get a new one but there’s no way I can afford it right now. A new phone will cost a lot and if I want to stop bothering Heath I need to get a model similar to his, but I know the one he has is super expensive.
If it comes down to books or phone. I’ll always choose books. No brainer. Although, I bet Heath wouldn’t think that. He’d tell me to buy a phone because it’s an investment for the business I’ve been running.
My business… It's been two days since I’ve checked Heath’s phone. I wonder if there are any orders.
I wish there are hundreds of orders so I can get busy and stop my brain from thinking.
Since the conversation I had with Mom I can’t stop thinking about how less I know about my parents. All the things they told me have further stories connected to them, and I believe I won’t like it when I get to know all those.
The second my phone lights up, it starts chiming with messages and calls. I quickly switch it to silent and watch thenotifications bombard my screen. At this rate, my phone will glitch and freeze up.
After two whole minutes, the notifications stop coming and I swipe up the home screen and click on the messages app.
There are a hundred and seven messages from Heath and two hundred messages from Marie.
My heart sinks.
Gosh! She knows.
