‘We’ll get him, Reuben.’ I barely hear Tobias’ words. I look up at him from across my seat, and I’m not sure what I must look like to him. I’m not sure that he’s ever seen me this way.
Baal, Gabriel and Tobias were the only ones I could take.
The rest of the family was focused on meeting Kai at the safe point.
Rosabella was pissed I wouldn’t join them. It’s the only moment in my life I’ve ever seen my twin furious with me.
But what’s the sense of sending an army to meet one kid?
When Christian is fighting the fucking army by himself?
Kai has the whole fucking family.
Christian only has me.
And I promised him he’s one of mine.
I only have four men and it fucks with me—god it fucks with me that I couldn’t get more.
But I’ve only ever had four men from the start.
And they’ve been all I needed. Without fail.
However, I had to leave Xavier behind.
I don’t trust him with Christian, not after the issue with the Harvester. I gave him the order to stay back.
I don’t have time right now to care that it hurt him.
My knee bounces uncontrollably as I count the seconds and it’s the only sign that I’m here at all. There’s this creeping,disgustingdread in my chest that I despise with every ounce of my core.
‘I’ll see you soon.’
I’m hearing Christian’s soft voice in my ears.
‘After the party… we’ll talk.’
I drag both hands through my hair.
We can’t talk if you don’t survive, baby.
We can’t fix us if you’re not here.
Youpromisedme.
You promised you’d try.
I’m on the cusp of hyperventilating, but I fucking refuse. I breathe deeply. I bounce my knee to get rid of some of the tension stirring up like a storm inside me.
And I remain focused as I remove my hands from my hair.
Don’t think. Don’t think.
We’re almost there.
Even though it’s sofuckingslow.
Fifteen men…
