“Um, a while. I am Tarzan she is Jane but yet you’ve been MIA,” she snaps. “So, don’t even think about getting pissy with me.”
My eyes peel open finally as I let out a cough, clearing my throat. I can’t have 81 involved with Carl and his vengeance for me. This is my fight and I plan on ending it.
“Little bird.” He peers at me through eyes that swam with tears, his eyes once again are the same color as the deepest parts of the green inside the ocean on a stormy day. Swimming in the deep depths of fucked up emotion, his body not wanting to feel and his eyes allowing me to stare in his soul. He’s on a whole new level of freaked out and concern for me.
“So, guys, what’s going on?” I ask causally. I need to dispel the tension. Lifting my fingers to my face in a fake attempt to rub my temples but I need to make sure that my bangs are covering the angry scar. Letting out a breath, phew, it’s covered. Having 81 see them and knowing I have to explain is one thing, but these ladies, I don’t wanna get into it with them. I just want to be me, Jade, but in true Jade form it’s all kinds of fucked up.
“You were drugged and near raped. Lucky Tarzan here walked in the door of his room. The assholes aren’t from this club and had no clue that the room they were in was the room belonging to the darkest monster here,” Timberly says looking at 81 then back down to me.
“I’ve rang Bray and the Doc. They will be here in a few,” the sweet voice says stepping into my line of vison. She is stunning. Tiny. Long blonde hair hangs like a golden halo around her. Her beauty instantly gives me a heightened sense of self-awareness. She's beautiful, beyond compare and I'm a mess.
“That, little lady, is Lilly. She is Bray’s sister and our club’s little princess. Don’t you ever think you’re any less around these women, little bird.” His voice kisses underside of my ear as he pulls me tighter into his arms. My lashes flutter over my cheeks and I just breathe the strength of this man in and allow their words to float over me. I readjust my position in his lap and pull the road worn leather jacket of his over my body as they continue to talk about the events that happened and the ones to come from this. I just allow 81’s breathing to lull me back down into the dark safe parts of my soul.
Chapter Twenty-One
Jade
The doctor came and went. Water and rest are what she ordered to flush my system. A lot of it.
At my house, that’s where I want to go. I want to be in my bed, my space, alone with my thoughts. 81 had said no not until he had dealt with the problem.
That problem being two things:
1-Four bleeding near death men tied up in a shed.
2-The guy in the car (little does he know they have already met).
I’m exhausted, being me is fucking exhausting at the moment. I sip on the water as I look at myself in the mirror inside Lilly’s bathroom. I’m wearing the small white tank and silk shorts she handed me to change into after the shower that she had ordered me to have.
“Use all the oils and shit, girl. You’ll feel like a million dollars afterwards. I swear. Ask Tim. She knows she’s been here in this. The same fucked-up space you are in right now. In the same fucked-up place you have been in and walked away from, only to just renter without wanting to and having that choice ripped from you. We all seem to have walked the same crazed path, baby.”Lilly spewed all that at me. It hurts my brain as it’s all too much for me to swallow and feel all at once. A light tap sounds out on the other side of the door. The pulse in my neck thuds where a heartbeat should be sounding out, but the fucker has stopped… it’s gone. Run away. This is all too much for my lonely existence that I have created. Closing my eyes and taking in what should be a deep, calming breath. I let it out in small blows as I open the door. My head is slightly dizzy and standing on the other side is a stunning set of eyes belonging to Timberly with a warm smile and a look of understanding.
“I thought the clothing Lilly gave you would be a little too risky for you, so I took a pair of sweats and a Cotton T-shirt from 81’s room.”
Looking at her as she holds out the clothing to me my hands shake as I reach for them. She smiles slightly and all I can seem to manage was a weak. “Thank you.” Timberly just nods like she understands. Lilly’s prior word vomit echoes insidemy mind as I close the door and instead of having a shower, I run a bath and slip down into the hot water filled with bubbles and oils from Lilly’s vast collection.
The water is heaven to my over sensitized body. My lids grow heavy as the water soothes my body, the quiet soothes my mind and the smell soothes my soul.
I allow my body to slip down as the bubbles cocoon me inside the weightlessness of the water, and I allow my mind to travel to another place.
The cracking sound that screams out inside the quietness of my mind, scares me from the water with a fright that hurts me heart.
I'm dazed, confused, and I'm not sure what is happening and need time to adjust my mind into remembering where I am and what I'm doing.
I'm wet, cold and my mind scrambles as the huge frame of a man with deadly eyes looks down into my wide-open ones and suddenly, I feel very exposed.
“Little bird, like what the fuck?” His words are panicked as I pull myself up and wrap my arms around my knees. I pull myself into them to hide from his eyes and the others who are looking in the room.
The bubbles have all but dispelled and the water is shockingly cold. How did I not notice this?
“Little bird,” he says again as my eyes move from the water to the door to him. Blinking up at him from wet lashes the tears are warm on my chilled cheeks.
“What the fuck, Jade? Talk to me,” he barks out and my body jumps all by itself like it's scared of him. It feels weird like I'm watching this all from inside my body. Not in it like in it, but from deep down looking up and out around me
“Maybe she’s still fucked up from the drugs them wank stains peddled into her.” A warm voice finds me. It's Timberly's. She's warm...she feels safe.
“I don’t know, man, she looks fucked up. Like she’s in some sort of trance-like fever.” Another voice says. I move my eyes to where the voice came from, it is definitely Blue's. “I know. I’ve been there before on the other side of what she’s going through. That shit’s messy, man,”she says again as Lilly steps closer and before she could say anything further 81 kicks the door closed. A small giggle leaves me as it slams into the three women’s faces. I can hear the humph on the other side. 81 fell to his knees beside the bath. His hands fist into my wet hair, then he pulls me into his face. His nose touching mine as his smell tickles my senses - all leather and fresh rain. He smells like heaven inside a hell storm. I cave under his touch, crumble under his stare and want to run away with how much his power alone can break me. Yet, my body screams stay, while my mind yells exit this fucked-up feeling and fast.
“Little bird, the fuck is going on in there?” His breath is warm on my chilled skin and I don't know how to answer him. “I just wanna save you, little bird. Like for real. I need you,” His words seeping honesty and you could taste the pain that coats the words.
