Letting the real me come to the front. The me I was before the world fucked me; before I let drugs take me and I went numb.
Grabbing my phone, I snap a pic of her laying on me, her hair a veil over my chest with long black lashes kissing her creamy white skin. Her lips are so plump and kissable.
I run my fingers over my lips remembering the way she tastes on them, her kiss so soft yet full of passion.
Our tongues touched, we devoured each other’s minds. Her hands sprawled out with her long nails painted red with tiny little Christmas decorations on them. Cute, she’s fucking cute.
I load the picture to my Instagram account captioning it.
She brought the rap devil to his knees, #oneglance#shemademeweak#onekissshestolemysoul #newaddiction #keepingherasmysecret
Her beautiful eyes flicker open. The icy blue meets mine. My fucking heart stops as I slide my fingers over her face pushing small strands of stray hair away.
I’m falling, fucken falling. #correctionfallen #stolenthelastpartofme.
She blinks her eyes that are laced with sleep. My cock twitches and my balls clench. I want nothing more than to fuck her hard and fast, but I know I have to take it easy with her. Slow and steady. Prove to her that I’m not the sick, drug fucked, porn star rocker the papers paint. Fucking wankers! Would it kill them to write the truth! #yupfakesells
Slowly her hand moves, her eyes never leaving mine. Her fingers snake out touching my nose, sliding over the bridge then over my cheek bone to my ear and neck. Her fingers push back strands of my hair from my face.
Fire is dancing over my skin, where her touch has been. Never have I ever felt this before. It’s scaring the fuck outta me.
“Hey.” Her voice is horse with sleep.
“Hey.” My gruff voice cracks open the silence.
“You’re still here.” Shock waves roll from that one statement.
She moves up placing her palms over my chest and resting her chin on top of them. Her long locks fall over her bare shoulders tickling the sides of my ribs, sending shivers out all over me. How can one thing, one woman, one human, bring me to my fucking knees? With just one look, one kiss, one touch, one fucking smile from those sweet lips and I’m done. I crave more of her and I haven’t even left yet. I’m seeking more, looking for the next hit from her sweet as sin body.
“Hell, yes. I stayed. Leaving wasn’t even a thought, babe.”
I smile, it’s the truth. I think it would break me if I left her laying there alone without my body to shelter her, without her breath to lull my demons to rest.
She blinks her long lashes over her cheeks with the blue of her eyes drowning me. I close mine saving the way she looks right now, her hair falling around us in waves. As the morning sun kisses the back of her body it sends shards of perfect light over her creamy skin, basking it in a warm glow. My head pounds from the amount of liquor I had inside my body last night. The drugs, I haven’t even had one itch, one craving for a line of coke yet.
“I’m afraid, Jay. I don’t know how to be with someone like you.”
She breathes out over my chest as I run my middle finger down her spine.
“What do you mean, babe?” I ask, shock kicking in as anger tries to take over my pulse. Old haunts start to bubble deep within.
“I’m me, Jay. I like to live quiet and alone. I like the peace and the simple. No one even knew I owned the club till the other night and fuck me, my phones been blown up ever since. I have skeletons. I have demons in my closest that I want to stay there. Having you here with me, doing this, will cause heartache for the both of us.”
Seething anger tickles at my senses as I scream on the inside.
“I will fight whom ever, whatever, to keep you safe, to keep you secret and to keep you here with me just like this. Us two and no one else.” The rigid lines of my muscles strain against my skin. I will fight for her. I will not lose her like I lost Ben.
Nerves play havoc on my insides waiting for her reply, hoping it’s what I want to hear.
“Well, going by the sound of my Instagram notifications and the way your phone is now blowing up, I’m thinking I’m no longer a secret, babe.” Fuck, I’m mentally slapping myself. I fucking didn’t even think that they would figure out it was Tru. I forgot I fucked up that dick in her club the other night and that I have always got some damn pap watching my every fucking move.
With that she pulls herself from my body. I miss her heat instantly. She grabs her silk robe and slips it over her smooth, naked body hiding her curves from my hungry eyes.
“Maybe you should go.”
Jumping from the bed I’m thinking oh hell, no. It’s fight time. She’s more stubborn than I am. Girls are hard fucking work mate, I tell ya.
I pull her back into my body crushing her to me. Grabbing her behind her neck, I tilt her head back as one hand skims down her spine while my other snakes up into her hair and holds her tight.
