Outside my Secret Service detail, Leo, Jordan, and Casey-Marie are the only people in this suite tonight who have my utmost trust not to betray me.
“You know you’re going to win tonight, don’t you.” It’s not a question.
“Unfortunately,” I mumble against him. Through his slacks I feel the warmth of his body.
And the hard bulge of his erection.
Before he can stop me I’m already unzipping him and fishing out his cock, softly moaning as he tightly grips my head and his erection spreads my lips.
His tone turns dark and steely while he slowly plows my mouth, shoving in as deep as he can, all the way to the root. “That’s what my pet needed, isn’t it?”
Fuckyes, it is. Something to temporarily detach my mind from reality.
But talking right now isn’t possible. It’s all I can do not to gag on his cock because I don’t get to suck him nearly as often as I’d like and I’m a little out of practice. Jordan doesn’t have a pencil dick but he’s not as large as Leo. I hold on to the back of his thighs while he totally takes control.
The scent ofHimfills my lungs, warm and familiar and stirring a deep longing inside me. For a moment, between trying to time my breathing and not gagging on his cock, I think about announcing tonight that I’m marrying Leo. If I won’t ever secure what I’ve craved and sought throughout my entire life then why the hell should I keep denying myself happiness?
Much less keep denying Leo happiness?
It’s tempting. Soooo tempting.
And yet—
He lightly slaps my cheek, more of a pat really, and it yanks me back to the present. “Focus, pet.”
The deep, sharp spiral of subspace sucks me into its grasp. For a precious few minutes, nothing exists but the feel of Leo’s erection sliding between my lips, the taste of his pre-cum, his ragged breathing, the feel of his fingers digging into my scalp.
Thisis where I truly belong. On my knees before a man I have no right to, because he’s stuck by me and tolerated my fear when anyone else would’ve saidfuck itand walked away in aggravation years ago.
Irrational love.
Irrational loyalty.
Times two, counting Jordan.
“Close, pet,” he gasps and I prepare. Just a few thrusts later he spills and I swallow fast, not wanting to lose a drop of it.
He’s still softening in my mouth while I close my eyes and breathe. Belatedly, I hope I didn’t slobber all over my tie. If so I’ll need to take it off and pass it to Jordan at some point and swap ties with him. Or, he likely has at least one or two spares for me in the kit that he totes everywhere to help me with Duck.
Leo’s grip on my head gentles as he massages my scalp. “Such a good boy,” he whispers, knowing exactly what buttons to push in my soul. “You’ve got this. You know you do. You’re smart, you’ve worked your ass off, and you deserve to be here.”
Leo never lies to me, never bullshits me. I force my eyes open to find him staring down with a sweetly sexy smile. “I’ll still be here in eight years, if that’s how long it takes. You can’t get rid of me that easily.”
Finally, I release his cock and place one last kiss on the head of it. “Thank god for that.” Because it’d kill me to lose this man because I’m a fucking dumbass.
“Hang on tight to Jordan, pet.” He gently flicks the daith piercing in my ear. “He’s strong enough to carry you, even through the darkest valleys. I wouldn’t have let you do this if I wasn’t certain of that.”
“You didn’t exactly have a choice. I went after him.”
He tips my head back so he can look me in the eyes. All humor’s vanished from his features. “I wanted him to be with you from the beginning, once I knew he was perfect for us. Yes, you two found your way together despite my stupidity. But once you did, if I had even a hint of a doubt he wasn’t the best person to walk at your side he wouldn’t be here no matter what the two of you wanted.”
He crouches, putting us eye-to-eye. “Pet, trust me when I say there are things you don’t need to know. The important thing isIknow. And I bet my life and yours that Jordan can take anything you or this job will ever throw at him. Short of someone on The Shift failing to do their job to protect the two of you, Jordan willneverlet you down.Ever. Trust him, follow him, obey him. That’s all you have to do. And while you’re in office, if I ever give you an order that contradicts Jordan’s, you default to obeying Jordan. Always. No matter what. Jordan’s word to you is law even if it pits you against me, even if it guts you to do it—alwaysobey Jordan. Promise me.”
There’s an intensity in Leo’s tone I’ve never heard before and a chilling shiver runs through me. “Master?”
He kisses me. “Do. Not. Ask. I wouldn’t tell you anyway. What did I just say?”
“Always trust Jordan. Always obey him.” I swallow the lump forming in my throat. “Even if it contradicts you. No matter what.”
