And Casey needs him, because when Ellen died, Casey lost her best friend.
Ineed him.
Need, or crave, I’m not sure which.
Maybe both. The two aren’t mutually exclusive.
Either way, I’ll let him seek solace in my flesh, because it’s all I have to give. And I’m not giving in or giving up on him, or on her.
Hopefully, we won’t all be consumed by the flames of his insanity in the process.
* * * *
Right now, we’re still a little ways out from the primary election filing deadline. The GOP hasn’t fronted anyone to run against George yet, and no candidates have bucked the state party and stepped up to challenge his assumed incumbency. Which is a damned good thing.
That’s another reason we currently have to be so freaking careful. If any hint of impropriety leaks about me and George, he’d be turfed faster than a Vol spiking the ball after a game-winning touchdown pass. And we have open primaries, just to add to the fun. George is GOP, but he’s also a RINO—Republican in Name Only.
There’s a lot the public doesn’t know about Tennessee Governor George Forrester.
Like he’s an atheist. That he’s a sadist. That he’s socially liberal.
That he dresses left, prefers I keep my eyes open and look up at him while giving him a blowjob in his office, and always has me tuck him in after he’s finished.
That he trulyownsme.
That him telling me to lock his office door when he summons me makes me immediately hard, if I’m not already hard.
That it didn’t take many times before him summoning me to his office made me hard, whether or not I knew the summons was for business or pleasure.
That I’m the first man he ever received a blowjob from, or fucked, and the only man he’s ever been with.
The way his breath feels against my scalp when we snuggle in his bed after a hard play and fuck session.
How he sounds when he whispers to me while we make love.
All these things and countless others would scandalize the voting public of Tennessee.
Which is why I have to remain his dirty secret.
I honestly think if it were up to him that he’d say fuck it, openly date me, and retire from public life after losing his re-election bid.
Casey, however, would likely wring his neck. Apparently, there were a lot of plans made long before Ellen was killed in the plane crash that nearly killed George, too. Things Ellen wanted to try to achieve as first lady when George eventually became governor.
So many social initiatives they wanted to accomplish, education reform, voter protections, equality guarantees.
This means I’ll remain George’s dirty little secret for the foreseeable future, because he’s dedicated to accomplishing a lot in his wife’s memory.
You know what?
I’m okay with that.
Because there are people in my personal life who’d probably want to hurt or maybe even kill me—or him—if the truth comes out.
* * * *
Guess this is a funny place to start my tale, but, honestly? I’m not exactly sure how I got here in the first place. There were a lot of possibilities I considered for my future—including the very real one that I might not evenhavea future—but this path never blipped my radar.
Hell, earning my law degree and passing the bar didn’t make the top fifty possibilities.
