I want this tolast.
I kiss him with my eyes wide open, watching his face, the way his eyes drop closed as he softly moans into my mouth.
In this moment, the boy ismine, completely and without reservation.
The slither inside me coils around my soul, my heart, my sadist and Dom reaching and grabbing and jealously eager to hold on to this momentforever.
Figuring out what all this means can happen later.
Muchlater.
His fingers twine in my hair as we kiss. He’s not trying to take control of it—he’s desperate for me to not stop.
I know the difference, trust me.
I mean, okay, you have no reason to trust me, because I think this whole thing proves I’m fucking insane, maybe even more than I realized I was. But I know when a submissivewants to be kissed and allowed to orgasm.
Don’t need a codebook to interpret the signs.
My left hand squeezes even tighter around his throat, just enough, and he practically melts against me.
Okay, then.
Ellen always loved it when I held her throat, too, but I never dared manhandle her like I’m doing with him right now.
My sadist is eagerly following along with these developments and hopingCasey was serious about Declan spending the night with me.
From wanting to die and dreading every morning, to now wanting to see what’s going to happen next, in just the span of a fuck.
Fuckshavebeen given.
Interesting. I’ve been so used to giving zero fucks lately I’d felt pretty damned dead inside.
There is something about Declan, and now that he’s hooked into my soul like hell do I wantto let him go. Maybe that sounds crazy to you, but I knew there was something different about Ellen, too, when I met her. I knew I was going to marry her. I knew she was special.
I’d still be married to her today were Fate not a cruel and fickle fucking bitch.
I have no idea what this is or will be between us, but Declan isn’t leaving my life, no matter what I have to do.
Because my world thismoment is quiet and still, except for the cock-hardening sound of his breathing and moans, and the soft sounds of me jerking him off.
I tighten my grip on his cock and stroke him faster. I’ve just flipped from wanting to drag this out to getting him home as soon as possible so I can lay him out in my bed and fuck him again.
Face-to-face this time.
So I can watch his brown eyes and play withhim more.
So I can make him come with my cock buried inside him and see what he feels like while I do.
Ineedthis right now, like breath, like sweet, fresh water. Like shade from the sun and food for my empty soul.
I needhim.
When I suck on his lower lip that’s the final block pulled from the carefully balanced pile to bring him crashing into pleasure. He softly cries out, muffled by mylips. Hot cum slicks my hand as he pumps it out over my fingers. A series of shudders wrack his body and leave him leaning against me, holding on to me to remain upright.
My hand slows and stills, and I bring it up to his mouth, waiting.
I don’t have to wait long. His gaze is fixed on mine as his mouth opens and he starts licking my hand clean, sucking every finger.
