I thought we’d have a lifetime together still.
So many plans.
So many dreams.
One very large, terrifying fucking nightmare made real.
His other hand closes over the back of mine, and now he’s tightly gripping me with both of his.
I feel him tip his head onto my shoulder, his breath washing against my cheek. “I’mrighthere, Sir,” he whispers.“I’m not going anywhere.”
Who knows if anyone’s watching us?
Fuck.
Them.
I lean my head against Declan’s and nuzzle him, breathing in the scent of his shampoo—correction. Not his.
Myshampoo.
He showered withmethis morning, and I stood behind him, and—
My cock surges as the jolt hits my system, that fresh memory wiping away all others for a brief and precious moment.
—my fingers lacedwith his, both hands pressing his palms against the shower wall as I slowly fucked him and left a pretty damn dark love bite on the juncture of his right shoulder with his neck, all while he eagerly ground his ass against me and begged me for more.
Us.
It wasus. This morning.
In my shower.
My boy.
Mine.
And he’s alive, and sitting right next to me, and it’s the warmth and strength of hishands holding me anchored to reality.
It’s not Ellen’s partially decapitated body, with her hand spasming around mine in a grisly last grip as frigid air and rain screams in through the hole ripped in the fuselage.
He pulls my hand onto his left thigh and nuzzles my ear. “I’ve got you, Sir.”
The sob escapes me. I have to bite down on the inside of my cheek again to keep from falling into hysterics.
He has no way of knowing those were nearly the identical last words I said to her, the last words I’m sure she ever heard me say to her before my soul was ripped from my heart and perfection was torn from my grasp.
I’ve got you, girl. I love you.
Declan makes me release his hand and presses my palm and fingers to the inside of his thigh left, cupping him, sliding my hand up with his right handover mine, until I feel the edge of my hand pressing against his cock.
Which is…hard.
My boy is taking a huge risk.
He’s taking a huge riskbecauseofme.
Forme.
