By the time I’m gone, he looks like he might piss his pants from fear.
15
LEANNA
Vasiliy meetsme at the door when I arrive. He is impeccably dressed, as usual, and smiling widely.
“Miss Ana,” he says. “The client asked if you might be willing to stay for more than the customary hour tonight?”
“I mean, sure,” I say, my stomach doing flip-flops, “but why?”
“Honestly, I’m not sure, but he said you can set the rate. He’ll take whatever time you’re willing to spare.”
“I don’t… I don’t have a rate,” I stammer, heat creeping up my neck. “I just…accept whatever he sends through you. I’m not a… I don’t do this for a living…you know…sex work stuff?”
I cringe at my own verbal vomit, my meekness, my strange shame.
Why feel ashamed in a place like this?
I’ve made thousands and thousands of dollars, and I’ve had countless orgasms with Nik, the Russian professional athlete.
I did it willingly.
I look forward to it every week.
Something about being with him calms me, makes me feel at ease and safe.
I like the low rumble of his voice.
I like the roughness of his touch.
I like the way he makes me feel.
Vasiliy chuckles. “I hate to tell you this, Ana, but if you don’t dosex work stuff, then I’m not sure what the hell you’re doing in there for thousands a night. Playing cards?”
He cracks up at his own joke, and I feel my cheeks heat with embarrassment.
“No, we don’t play cards,” I say through a grimace.
For seven weeks, I’ve been coming here on Friday nights. Each week, the tension between us grows hotter and hotter.
Well, hotter for me, anyway.
Nik has had his fingers and mouth all over me at this point. He has unlocked something in me, something dark and needy and hungry. I didn’t know sex could be like this, that foreplay could feel like this.
And that’s what it’s been, right?
Foreplay?
I’ve known all along that he would, eventually, want sex.
I don’t know why he won’t let himself come, why he lets me touch him but not bring him to orgasm. But he’s always hard for me.
He’s always ready, so I know there’s nothing wrong with himdown there.
He seems perfectly virile and healthy.
And…I want him to feel pleasure.
